The Club / Yoonmin FF

72

Jimin layed there half buried under Yoongi still hugging him tight, feeling relaxed and happy and .... What did he say?

Jimins brain was still half in lalaland but he heard him.
'I love you so much.'

He loves me.

He is trying to collect his thoughts through the mist.
He remembered clearly the first time Yoongi said it but since he never said it again he had brushed it of as a mechanism to get him to talk about his past.

Now he said it again and not just that, he said 'so much'.

So much.

Jimin is breathing heavy.
He swallows hard. His mouth is so dry all the sudden.
His heart is racing.

'I love you so much.'
Now it's ringing loudly in his head. He really tries to breath normally. He can't think.

Yoongis mind came back and he realized Jimins weird breathing. Oh God. He moves up to look at him.

"Baby. Please. Don't panic." Yoongi kisses his face lightly. "Just breath." He pulls Jimin ontop of him, he feels his heartbeat going crazy. "I'm sorry. I didn't want to overwhelm you." He slowly caresses Jimins back. "Breath with me. Its ok. You're ok."

Jimin tried to breath with Yoongi. His mind went haywire by now, he needs to get control over all of it quickly.

He doesn't want to freak out. He wants to be normal. He wants to be happy. He should be able to react normally to such a wonderful thing.

He closed his eyes remembering some breathing techniques from therapy and some calming mantras he can repeat in his mind to stop the craziness of his thoughts.

Yoongi held him tight and waited for him to come back to him. He was unsure if this really was a good decision but it doesn't matter now. He had said it, he wanted to say it for so long, he couldn't keep it bottled up any more.

He never wanted to cause Jimin harm. He thought he was ready.

"I'm so sorry." Yoongi wispers.
Jimin moved up to look at him.
"Don't be." He softly caressed Yoongis face. "You make me so happy."
He smiled softly and kissed him shyly.

Yoongis heart jumps. He lets out a long breath of relief. A huge stone is falling of his chest.
He's fine. He's happy.

All they do for the next couple minutes is looking at each other, hugging and softly kissing until they take quick shower and then went to sleep happily in each other's arms.

***

On Saturday morning Choi picked them up right after breakfast and drove them home.
Jimin told Yoongi he wanted some Tae time. He kissed him quickly and disappeared into Taes room, shortly after a sleepy JK came downstairs demanding coffee and boundaries for Jimin.

Yoongi laughed at him. As if he could regulate Tae and Jimin relationship. Delusional.
Yoongi made him a coffee and together they waited for whatever was coming next.

Jin appeared not that long after. He gave Yoongi a questioning look but didn't say anything.
Yoongi wasn't sure how much he wanted to reveal. It's still a very private matter. He would have never included Jin in this topic if Jimin wasn't in need of his support system.

All these people knowing his private feelings is uncomfortable for him but he will suck it up for Jimin. He would do anything for Jimin.

So they sat there together, drinking coffee in silence, each of them in their own thoughts.

"Namjoon asked me to marry him." Jin blurted out.

JK spits his coffee. "Wow! That's......fast." He starts but then decides to shut up and cleaned his mess.

"I know. " Jin says sipping on his coffee. He seemed a little overwhelmed himself.
"Did you say yes?" JK asked, his curiosity getting him.
"Yes." Jin swallows hard.
Yoongi rubs his back trying to give him an encouraging smile.
"Namjoon for sure is a lot of things but his is not known for making irrational decisions."
Jin smiled at him gratefully and nods.
"Where is Jimin?" He asks than "I really want to talk to him."

"Upstairs with Tae. He kicked me out 10 minutes ago." JK told him still feeling grumpy, rejected and homeless.

Jin got up to prepare some tea and snacks, said bye to the others and also disappeared in Taes room.

Not that long after that Namjoon appeared in the kitchen looking all tall and proud.
His smile was so big it made Yoongi laugh.

"What up, Namjoon? Want coffee?" He asks smiling at him stupidly.

"Any news?" Yoongi continued eyeing Namjoon while drinking his coffee.
"Hmm." Namjoon enjoyed his coffee looking at the others. He can tell they already know but still wait for him to tell them himself.

Very well then.
"Jin and I are getting married." He says and lifting his mug up, toasting them.
Yoongi and JK both get up to hug him shortly while patting his back. "Congratulations, man." Yoongi said. "Thats so great." Comes from JK.

Namjoon laughed. "Thanks guys." He sits down with them at the table and looks around "Where is Jin?" He asks a little confused now.

"They are all in Taes room talking about us." JK is still not over it.
Yoongi just shrugged his shoulders. "Its true." And continues to drink his coffee.

Namjoon looked at him "How are things with you and Jimin?"
Yoongi grunts.

They rarely talk about that stuff but since Namjoon already paved the way a little Yoongi answered honestly. "I don't know, really. He said he's happy."
JK can see that Yoongi longs for more than that but didn't interfere.

"And you?" Namjoon asks softly
"I'm.....confused and scared." JK swallows hard. Never had he heard Yoongi talk so openly.
"Whats going on?" Jk asked him lowly.
He is very worried now.

Yoongi sighs.
"I don't know. I have a decision to make and I don't know the outcome so it's scares the crap out of me."

Yoongi finished his coffee and got up. "Anyways. See you later." And with that he disappeared leaving a worried Brother and friend behind.