SLIPPING THROUGH MY FINGERS
✧･ﾟFOURTEEN
CRISTINA stood in the crowd at the beach party that happened every summer. It was more towards the end, everyone leaving in the next couple of weeks to return to school, or to work. Jessica and her sipped from their red cups, not really being in the mood to be at a party. " I don't even wanna be here, do you?",
" Not really", Cristina admitted, watching Luke as he talked to a group of girls. Her face had a disgusted look on it, even though she trusted him.
" Do you wanna just go then? We can watch a movie or something", her best friend suggested.
Cristina sighed, " Let's stay for a little longer. It's only been like twenty minutes, if we really aren't enjoying it, we can leave",
Jessica agreed with her, the two wandering to find someone to talk to. They ended up hanging out with Lily, a girl who was staying at a house just a few doors down from them. " So, how are you and Luke? You guys were together last summer, right?",
" Um yeah, we broke up last summer. But I think we're kinda on the track of getting back together",
Lily gave her a surprised look, Jessica noticing. " Is that surprising?",
" Well, kinda. Since his arm is around that girl over there, that's why I asked", Lily said awkwardly. The two girls quickly looked behind them, seeing that she was right. Luke had his arm around a short blonde girls waist, her hand resting on his chest.
Cristina just about lost it when she saw the girl whisper something in Luke's ear, guiding him away from who they were talking to. Cristina turned back to Lily, sending her a soft smile. " Well, I'm gonna go. It was nice seeing you",
Jessica watched as Cristina basically ran up the path to head back to their house. " I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to cause anything", the girl with soft brown hair said.
" No don't worry. It wasn't your fault, see you around", Jessica quickly said, immediately going to follow her best friend. " Cris, wait!",
Cristina couldn't stop crying, barely even being able to breathe once she got to the back step of her house. Jessica wasn't far behind, wrapping the girl in a hug. " I thought he meant it this time, that it was gonna work", she said in between sobs.
" I know, I'm sorry Cris. I really am",
Jessica saw Quinn standing at his back door, looking at the two worriedly. He slowly came over, Jessica letting go of Cristina as she wiped her face. " Cris, you ok?",
" No, I'm not", Cristina said aggressively. Quinn chuckled a bit, rubbing her back in comfort. " Luke is all over this girl at the beach party, I thought he meant it when he said it was gonna be different this time. That he wanted us to work out",
Quinn looked at her, feeling sorry for her. " I'm sorry, Cris. Luke is a dick, and an idiot. If he's smart, he will come here and beg for forgiveness. If he's smart",
Cristina laughed, Quinn always making her feel a bit better. " Yeah, I'm gonna go upstairs. Thanks, Quinn",
" I'll talk to him. I promise",
The girl nodded, going upstairs and climbing into her bed. Jessica joined her, the two sitting in silence for a bit. " Maybe this is just a sign, that it might not be a good idea for us to be back together. Clearly, he can't hold himself back",
" I don't know, talk to him tomorrow. I'm not saying what he did wasn't wrong, because it was, but maybe just talk and see what he has to say", Jessica said quietly, " Worst case, you tell him to go fuck himself. That's probably what he needs to hear anyway",
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The next morning, Cristina put on a pair of black jean shorts and a white hoodie. Jessica had gone out with Sam and the parents to quickly get food for their last couple of weeks before heading back. When she got downstairs, she found Quinn, sitting at the island.
" You're like a stalker", she joked.
Quinn smiled, " I just wanted to check on you",
" Thanks Quinn, but I think I'll be fine. I'll talk to him, and see what he has to say", Cristina said.
" He's expecting you to get mad, since I almost beat the shit out of him last night when he got home. So don't go easy on him", Quinn laughed.
Cristina nodded at him, " Tell him to come over when you go back?", Quinn nodding at her before exiting through their back door.
The girl cut up a bunch of fruit, sitting at the small table out on their dock. She could feel his presence behind her, so she turned around, Luke already looking at her.
" Hey", he said awkwardly. The girl motioned for him to sit, Luke sitting in front of her.
" You're a dick", Cristina stated, Luke pressing his lips together. " Why were you with that girl on the beach? I thought you said you wanted this to work, for real this time",
Luke went to grab her hand, Cristina putting it in her lap before he could. " Cris, I do. I want this to work so bad, I can't even explain it. I honestly don't know why I did that last night, and I wish I could tell you the answer. But I can't, and I'm sorry. I know I'm a dick, and I deserve for you to be a complete bitch to me",
Cristina agreed, " Yeah, you do. But you saying you don't have an answer isn't gonna make me feel any better. I don't know, Luke. I feel like everytime I think it's gonna be better, you're just slipping away from me",
" I feel the same way about you too",
" Maybe with you going to jersey soon and all that, this isn't gonna work. Maybe your decision last summer was the right one", Cristina said, her eyes watering.
" What? No, Cristina, it wasn't the right decision at all. We can make this work, easily. I know we can, please. I messed up, I know that. And I'll make it up to you somehow. I won't go to jersey, if it means I get to stay with you, I won't go",
Cristina scoffed and smiled a bit, " Luke, don't be ridiculous. You're going to jersey, like you've always wanted too. This is just holding you back, I can recognize it, maybe you need to recognize it as well",
" You aren't holding me back. If we aren't together, it'll hold me back more. Knowing that you're there for me and all of that is what makes me a better person in general, Cris. Please, don't give up on us. I know I messed up and I know you think I'm a dick who doesn't know what's going on", he said, " But I know that you're the only girl for me".
Cristina looked at him, not sure what to do. She knew that everything he was saying was true, but he just couldn't show it. " Luke, I love you. Like a lot, and I always will. But for now, I seriously think this isn't best for us. Maybe at school it'll be different, but what you're saying doesn't match with what you're showing. I'm sorry",
He watched as she stood up, the boy standing up as well. " Fine, but I'll wait. I love you so much, Cris. I don't care if I'm 40 and still single, I'll always wait for you",
a/n
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