Only Love❤️

Chapter 40🌈

"Tum usse milna toh dur ki baat h dekh bhi sakti. Dur raho mere dost se", he just said in a cold voice.

I couldn't believe his voice. He was the only person who always wanted me and Siddharth to end up together.

"Dekho Sidhant joh tum kahoge mai vaisa karungi bass mujhe ek baar unhe dekh lene do. Bass please ek baar. Mai Mai marr jaaugi agar unhe nhi dekhugi toh, please ek baar dekh lenedo", I said him in a pleading voice. Tears are not stopping.

"Nhi", the only words he uttered.

"Mai tumhare aage hath jodti hu please mujhe mere sidharth ji ko dekhne do please", I said folding my hands in front of him

"Shenaaz tumhari tabet kharab ho jaaegi stop crying.", but tears are not stopping mai ky hi karu, but he again shouted,"Shenaaz for the fuck sake stop crying. You are fucking pregnant and crying is not good for the babies. Tum kyu dekhna chahti ho usse tumne hi kha tha tumhe uski shakal nhi dekhni. I accept ussne tumhare sath kabhi kuch sahi nhi kiya, aacha nhi kiya pr kabhi marne ki dua bhi nhi di thi na yrr", saying so he breakdown

"Yehh tum ky keh rhe ho.", I looked at him in horror.

"Mai ky keh rha hu tumne kha h. Tumne usse kha ki voh tumhe aur uske baache ko bhul jaaye pr yeh uske liye possible nhi tha. Pr voh pyaar tumse itna krta tha ki tumhari baat nhi taali gyi usse toh ussne maarna prefer kiya", he said in a barely audible voice.

"Mai Mai smj gyi pr mai bhi ky karti, tum jaante ho na mai shuru se unhe kitna pyaar krti hu, kitna chahti pr maine unhe kiss karte hue dekha h yrr. Esi harkat toh unhone tab bhi nhi ki thi jab voh claim krte the ki voh rashmi ke h aur mera unse koi lena dena nhi h", I told him honestly

"Shenaaz uss din joh bhi hua h  rashmi  planned all this. Sidharth ne kabhi tumhe neeche bulaya h ese akele dobara aane ke baad nhi na, It was all planned by Rashmi. Ussne tumhe dekhkar pulled him by his collar and kissed him. Mai jaanta hu tum believe nhi karongi pr yehi sach h", he said and continued,"Jaao jaakr dekhlo usse"

As soon as those words slipped from his mouth I couldn't control my self and ran towards the ward and looked at him from the small window.

He was on ventilator with all kind of drip wire injected in him. I couldn't not believe my eyes, the man who is always stood like a rock is laying there lifelessly.

Doctor came outside and said,"We are going to start the surgery and we will ne trying our best to save him but still the condition is worse and we are not giving you any hopes. Please sign these papers, for the further procedure"

How can I sign those papers. I don't have that courage within me to sign those papers. I asked sidhant to sign the papers but he said legally I am his wife and I will only have to sign those papers.

With those trembling hands, I unwilling signed the papers and started praying for the successful surgery.

After two hours surgery was still going on when shefali and sidhant came and told me to eat something, it's not healthy for the baby.

I completely shut them off saying,"jab tak sidharth ji ki surgery successful nhi ho jaati tab tak kuch nhi khaugi mai aur yeh final h"

"Sana baby kha le ne, babies ke liye",shefali cooed me. But sidhant said,"Shenaaz problem ky h kyu kr rhi ho yeh. Abhi situation already bhaut difficult h mere liye aur mt banao. You know Sidharth is my only family and still mai kayi baar usse lada hu tumhare liye kyuki mai chahta tha you guys to end up together. Pr nhi hua koi baat nhi ab tum chati thi ki voh tumhare samane na aaye usse voh bhi kr liya pr ab ky chahti ho. Khud kyu aayi ho yaha."

"WAHH!! Sidhant ky hypocrisy h na tumhari bhi. Tumhara dost do saal se mereko pucha nhi jabki do saal maine chaha h unhe, fikre ki h unki ab ek dum se unhe mujhse pyaar ho gya aur tum chahte ho mai sab bhul jaau. Kaise bhul jaau voh raatein jha mere sath voh sab karne ke baad meekoo comfort krne ki jagah rashmi ke pass chale jaate the ya mereko beech raaste mein chodke rashmi ke pass gye, mera jala hua hath nhi dekha, kabhi ek baar pyaar se nhi dekha. Bass harr waqt Rashmi-Rashmi-Rashmi lagi rehti thi unke. Mai kaise bhul jaau ek dum se voh sab.", I told him honestly.

I feel like now we are not fighting instead we are just pouring aur hearts to each other.

"Uski bhi galti nhi h shenaaz voh majbur tha", I looked at him accusingly

"Shadi ke baad ke affair ko majburi ka naam mt do Sidhant. Dokha dena kabhi majburi nhi ho sakti h", I told him clearly

"Nhi ho sakti mai maanta hu pr yah Sidharth ki thi. Voh tumhe shadi ke phle din se chane lga tha dost hu uska, jaanta hu uske baare mein itna toh. Pr Rashmi ke bhai ne uske dadaji ki jaan bacahi thi apni Jaan ki keemat deke aur badle mein sirf rashmi ka zindagi bhar khayal rakhne ka wada liya tha. Toh usse humesa lgta tha ki divorce ke baad voh tumhe ek aache ladke ke sath settle kr dega or rashmi uski zimmedari h pr uska dil kabhi mana hi nhi ki tumhe kisi aur ke sath dekhe. Maine dekha h inn mahino mein jab tum nhi thi usse tadapte hue dekha h, tumhari yaad mein til til maarte hue dekha h. Voh ek hi baat kehta h sana ese dhyaan rakhti thi vaise dhyaan rakhti thi", he told me and honestly I don't know how to react.

Mujhe aaj pta chala ki itna sab hone ke baad bhi voh humesa rashmi ko hi priority kyu rakhte the kyuki he is indebted for life. Now everything started making sense.

"Shennaz mai jaanta hu sidharth ne bhaut galti ki h joh maaf nhi kari Jaa sakti h pr mai yeh bhi jaanta hu Mera dost saachi chahta h tumhe. Tumhe lgta h uss din hospital mein tumhara jala hua hath maine co-incidencely dekha pr nhi mereko uss kamine ne hi msg kiya tha ki mai tumhare pass jaau. Uss din time breakfast lene bheja mausam kharab mein pr khud bhi peeche peeche gya kyuki darr tha usse pr tumhare sath esa isiliye kiya kyuki jalan thi ki tumne musibat mein usse call krne ki jagah merko call Kiya."

"Pyaar nhi dekha h ussne life mein, usse pyaar Krna sikha do please Sana. Maaf krdo usse"

I held my head yeh sab bhaut zyda h mere ko process krne ke liye.

"Let me breath Sidhant",I told him honestly

Yeh sab ek din mein ky ho gya. Mereko kuch smj nhi aa rha dhang se. Kuch process hi nhi kr paa rhi hu. Pr Mahadev aaj inhe hospital mein dekhke itna jaanti hu ki inke bina ab nhi reh paaugi mai. I can't live without him. Ab yeh joh bhi h jaise bhi h mere h and I will handle him.

Pr yeh inka accident kaise hua mujhe yeh smj nhi aa rha so I asked sidhant,"Yeh mujhe batao ki yeh yaha hospital Tak pahuche kaise?"

"After you told him all those words he was broken and leave the mansion. I called him but he said, jaan ne joh kha vahi karugaaa and then I herad a loud sound of crashing from the other side of the phone. Mai Mai uska phone track krke vha puacha toh uska aur ek truck ka accident ho gya and he ended up here"

After listening all this mujhe lg hi nhi rha yeh accident h. This is murder and that sin is committed by me. Apne pati ko maine maine marra h. I don't like to live but suddenly remembered about my babies.

Ky zindagi kr di aapne mahadev marr bhi nhi sakti hu mai khudko.

Suddenly doctors came outside the ER and said he is stable now but aap unse kl hi mil sakte h.

Thank You! Thank you! Mahadev for this.

"Yes Doctor Thank you", Sidhant said and left for the further responsibilities he has to dealt with in the hospital.

Didn't move a inch infront of his ward because I want to see him meet him, bhaut baat karni h mujhe usne Shikayat krni h.

Shefali and Sidhant told me numerous times ki ghar chali jaau aur subah aa jaau pr Mann hi nhi kiya chodke jaane ka.

Now it's the time doctor said you can meet him.
I went inside the ward and my heart literally sank at the site. His eyes were closed and all those hospital equipment were connected to his body.

I couldn't hold my self and ran tu hug him and genuinely felt the emotion

Shikayaat ki paayi paayi jod
Kar rakhi thi maine
Usne gale laga kar saara
Hisaab bigaad diya,

I felt the word sukoon now, then I noticed him moving and he opened his eyes. Tears again started welling up in my eyes and I said,"Aap yeh kaise gaadi chala rhe the. Khud ka dhyaan nhi sakte. Kuch ho jaata toh"

But suddenly he said," Voh sab thik h pr tum ho koun?"

My world crashed down and so do I.

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