I sit here and I morn your loss little one.
The life that never got to be
The little kicks that never came
The hands never to be held
I feel all the what if's come crashing down around me
As if had I breathed differently you'd be mine to hold
All the possibilities never to be seen
All the first I will never see
Hope is like a drug
The highs almost euphoric
It pulls you through the lows
It makes you numb to the hits one after another
But when it's gone...
The very ground beneath you crumbles
Bringing you to your knees as every bruise stings to life...
You were so small almost not there at all
But I knew when I saw you hope had left
In her place was numbness
It can't be real
The words swirled through my head
As if repeating them would force back the clock and make the world right again
I close my eyes and dream...
That those little kicks would still come
That one day I'd feel your foot in my ribs as you practiced for the outside world
That I would get to feel the tiny hiccups deep within me as you grew
That id hold you and see your eyes look at me your first moments in this world
Little hand clasped so strongly to me finger as if it could pull you from my dreams and make it real.
My dearest almost baby
You never got the chance to be
To live and mornThis pain feels as if I morn twice
Once for me and once for youBecause though you didn't make it in my womb
You will always be held in my heart
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Thoughts of a Weathered Mind
PoetryA collection of emotional thought evoking poetry