Laws in Love I: Grayson

Chapter 8

Nang magtagpo ang mata namin ay doon na ako gumalaw. I closed my door immediately.

My heart was beating so fast and sweat started forming in my forehead. Napasandal ako sa pintuan habang kinakalma ko ang sarili.

That was intense...I can't help but murmur it to myself.

Kinapa ko ang mabalis na tibok na puso ko pero wala pang ilang segundo ang nakalipas ng muntik na akong mapatalon sa gulat dahil sa katok sa pintuan ko.

I looked at my door horribly and swallowed hard. The knocking then suddenly stops pero muli rin itong nagpatuloy, and this time it sounded more urgent than ever. Alam kong hindi na ito si Ate Cecil o Auntie Glenda.

My insides shook because I knew I had to open it. Hindi naman pwedeng magpanggap na lang ako na tulog dahil huling-huli akong nanonood sa halikan nila. At kung ipagpapabukas ko pa ay baka mas malala ang mangyayari sa akin.

Kaya naman dahan-dahan kong binuksan ang pintuan ko. I was praying in my head that my gut was wrong but when it finally revealed who it was.

Hindi nga ako nagkakamali.

A pair of piercing eyes welcomed me. Mukha siyang lasing kanina pero ngayon ay para siyang nabuhusan ng malamig na tubig at gising na gising na. I was literally shaking in front of him as I looked at his jaw clenched hard.

Hindi ko naman intensyon na maka istorbo. I was just hungry and I needed to eat.

Napalunok ako ng malalim habang patuloy ang seryoso nitong titig sa akin.

"Ano…" Umiwas ako ng tingin at napatingin sa dati nilang pwesto kanina habang naghahalikan sila ng kasama niya.

I am sure that was a different girl but he always has different girls at school so it doesn't really matter.

"H-hindi ko naman sinasadya...I'm really sorry…" I looked up to his eyes and saw the fire intensify.

Humakbang ako patalikod pero agapan niyang hinawakan ang dalawa kong braso. Nanlaki ang mata ko sa ginawa niya at ramdam ko ang biglaang panghihina ng mga tuhod ko.

“Why are you always fucking moving away from me, huh?” He hissed under his breath.

I am scared. That's the only thing that came to my mind as I looked at him. Hindi na rin rumehistro sa akin ng buo ang sinabi niya dahil sa paraan ng hawak niya sa braso ko.

It was tight but it loosened immediately, pero nanatili pa rin ito sa pareho kong braso. His breathing was heavy at tila kinokontrol niya lang ang kanyang sarili na saktan ako.

He then closed his eyes tightly and let out low curses as he finally removed his arms on mine. Siya na ang humakbang patalikod pero isang hakbang lang iyon.

Kaagad kong hinawakan ang dalawa kong braso, hindi maitago ang takot na nararamdaman.

His eyes widened a little bit as he looked at me and let out more low curses, habang natuod na ako sa kinatatayuan ko.

Nang muling nagtagpo ang mga mata namin ay mas naging kalma na rin ang mga ito.

“Forget what you saw…” Mas mahina nitong salita ngayon.

Hindi ako makasagot dahil pakiramdam ko wala namang boses na lalabas sa akin. I was stunned by all of it.

Pero bigla-bigla ay umiwas siya ng tingin. The fire in his eyes died in an instant and his shoulder relaxed.

“I-I w-won't ever do it again…” He murmured it to himself but I clearly heard it.

Afterwhich, I just watched him walk out in front of me and heard him closing his door. I was feeling light headed from all of it and I almost couldn't even register the words he uttered.