She's Not Afraid (One Direction) [Book One]

Chapter Thirteen

I rolled over in my bed and went to put my arm out wrap around my boyfriend's waist and curl up next to him only to be met with coldness where he now usually slept. We'd been off tour for about three weeks which gave Louis and I time to properly spend together. I rolled over onto my stomach and heard my bedroom door open without being knocked on which let me know it was Louis who'd just walked in. I heard a mug being placed on the bedside table before a cold hand was placed on my back.

"C'mon sleepyhead. You need to get up to have a shower and get ready for later, I even got you your favourite tea." I felt the bed shift before feeling Louis place a kiss on my shoulder. I was enjoying not having to get up early for interviews, and morning show performances and having to pack my stuff to get to the tour bus in time. I sat up and gave Louis a small kiss on the lips before grabbing my cup of tea and taking a sip, the flavour of Irish Breakfast tea filling my mouth. I couldn't help but smile into my mug, he really did know what tea was my favourite.

"What time is everyone getting here?" I took another sip as I noticed Louis's eyes were looking at my bra causing me to pull the blanket up over my breasts before he finally started talking.

"The guys will be arriving in half an hour then Lou will be here about an hour or so after that to do our hair and all that." I groaned as I quickly finished my tea and got up and headed into the shower. I quickly showered and washed my hair before getting out, wrapping a towel around me and blow-drying my hair. As I walked into my room I heard voices outside meaning the boys had arrived.

I got dressed, slipping on a black strapless dress that stopped just above my knees at the front and ankles at the back that had black floral lace work over it before putting on a pair of black heels that had a ribbon-like strap for around my ankles. I walked out of my room almost walking straight into Claire who was wearing a black dress that was the same length but was only white on the chest part of it with a pair of white heels that had silver flowers and small spikes on the actual heel part.

"Oh my gosh, Em you look amazing. This came in the mail for you earlier this morning, do you want me to leave it on the table at the entrance?" I noticed she was holding a manila envelope with my name and address on it. Now probably wasn't the time to read it.

"I'll read it when I get back tonight. We should go see the guys." I smiled and dragged Claire into the lounge room where Harry, Liam, Louis, Niall and Zayn stood fixing up their shirts and black suit jackets. I heard a small giggle pass my lips before quickly covering my mouth as Louis walked over to me and placed his hands on my sides.

"You look beautiful Em." I felt Louis place a small, quick kiss on my lips before going over and helping Harry with his tie. I couldn't help but smile to myself, I don't think he was fully aware of what he was doing to me but whenever I was around Louis it felt like I had butterflies constantly fluttering around in my stomach.

Before I knew it Lou had arrived, and done everyone's hair and everything that needed to be done, including my make-up. As we all sat in the Limo I felt my nerves kick in. This was my first major event and I was afraid I'd mess up, trip or even hit the wrong note while we were performing. I started bouncing my leg on the spot before I saw Louis' hand on my knee.

"Calm down, it'll be fine, you will be fine." I looked at him as he gave me a reassuring smile, I knew he was right but I couldn't stop myself from being nervous. The vehicle stopped before the door opened and we all got out.

We signed a few things before doing a few little interviews, Louis made sure he was next to me every chance he had. We eventually made our way inside and reached our seats, I sat between Harry and Louis. We were up for two awards, British Group and British Single of the Year as well as performing.

I hadn't noticed I was biting my nails until I felt someone gently grab my hand and pull it away, I turned and noticed it had been Louis. He moved my hand and held it, rubbing his thumb over my knuckles like he did the night in the car on the way back to our hotel when I had passed out. We heard them call out the group, followed by cheers meaning we'd won.

After winning we were taken to go get ready to go on stage for our performance, which was Night Changes. As I waited for us to go on stage I started humming 'Just Like A Pill' by Pink until someone tapped me on the shoulder, turning around I saw Zayn and pulled one of the in-ears out.

"You okay? You look terrified" I nodded at him, terrified was an understatement right now. This was my first televised performance, I was so nervous I thought I would throw up at any moment. We were all quickly rushed out on the stage and took our spots. I didn't realize how well we sounded until now.

After the performance the rest of the night flew by, we won both awards we were up for. I was excited to get home until I remembered I had the large envelope at home, waiting for me to open. We all went home except for Claire, who went home with Niall. As I sat in the car with Louis I felt his arms wrap around me.

"You were so good tonight. When I saw you this morning, standing there in that dress, it made me just want to take it off then and there." I felt him kiss under my ear, causing me to let out a soft moan before I pulled away and sighed.

"Louis you're drunk, I can smell the alcohol on your breath. You're supposed to be heading off to see your family tomorrow, maybe you should go home and get some sleep." I heard him let out a long sigh before pulling away. I felt the vehicle come to a stop.

"I'll see you when you get back okay? I love you, Louis." I gave him a small kiss on the lips before climbing out of my side of the car. I watched them pull off before making my way inside the foyer and pressing the button for the elevator, I watched as the doors opened allowing me to step in. In three weeks we were starting the European leg of the tour and I was truly excited to be spending it with my boyfriend and bandmates.

I heard the elevator ding as the doors opened, and walked out into the quiet hallway. This was going to be my life from now on. The award shows, interviews, meeting fans, going into the studio to record. Zayn had been right, you do have to get used to it. I put the key into the lock, turning it before it clicked open.

I closed and locked the door behind me before taking my shoes off. I picked up the envelope and carefully opened it. I slowly and carefully pulled out the mass of papers that were in there. I looked at the header on the letter which had been placed on top, noticing that it was from management.

"Dear Miss Myers,

You've shown amazing talent since joining One Direction, but we feel that you would have more potential if you were to go solo."

I slowly made my way over to the couch with all the papers before sitting down, I felt tears starting to form. I kept reading the letter until the bottom. I was being given the option of going solo or losing everything, which meant the guys and Louis. I looked over the other papers and found out that it was a contract, the letter said if I were to sign this the other contract would be terminated.

I couldn't believe I had been given these twooptions, either choice I made I would be losing five people who'd become notjust my best friends, but a second family to me and in a way, also my boyfriend.I sat there, reading and re-reading the letter over and over again. This wasgoing to be the hardest decision of my life, and not one I could make right now.