Benrius one-shots JWCC

• BETTER THAN NOTHING • {PT 1}

- BETTER THAN NOTHING -

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NOW PLAYING: Once More to See you
By Mitski

♫ In the rearview mirror
I saw the setting sun on your neck
And felt the taste of you bubble up
inside me
But with everybody watching us
Our every move
We do have reputations
We keep it secret
Won't let them have it
So come inside and be with me
Alone with me
Alone
With me alone
If you would let me give you pinky
promise kisses
Then I wouldn't have to scream
your name
Atop of every roof in the city of
my heart
If I could see you
Once more to see you
Come inside and be with me
Alone with me
Alone
With me alone
If you would let me give you pinky
promise kisses
Then I wouldn't have to scream
your name
Atop of every roof in the city of
my heart
If I could see you
Once more to see you
If I could see you
Once more to see you ♫

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ THE NIGHTLY breeze passed the young boy in the small tent. The tent flap danced slightly with the blowing wind making Darius shiver under his semi warm sleeping bag. The boy toss and turned under the fabric of the dark green sleeping bag. He turned over to his side and faced the sleeping boy just a little away from him. Darius let out a shaky sigh as he looked over at the peacefully sleeping male.

Darius knew it was bad to have these feelings for a boy, even worse over someone who hates his guts. As soon as they met Ben started hating him and no one really knew why. Darius, of course just went along with it. For these past few months Darius had been acting as if he too hated Ben like how Ben hated Darius. He hated having to act like he hated the one he truly loved, but he would rather act as if hated him than admit his feelings towards the boy.

Nobody in the small camp knew why the two hated each other or even that Darius didn't even hate Ben at all. Darius could never tell anyone about his seemingly growing feelings over the male. Darius couldn't help but hate that fact he loved Ben so much. Darius loved him so much so he thought he could even risk his life for the boy. Darius knew Ben would never do the same for him. Ben hates him and everyone knew that. It was a known fact.

Darius had lost count of how many times the small group have tried to make Ben and himself get along. Darius had always tired to act as if he hated the thought of getting close to Ben when the others tried to do so. The group have tried everything they could think of to stop the two boys from their constant  bickering but nothing seemed to work. Eventually they seemed to give up on trying to get them both to get along. Darius couldn't help but feel a little disappointed that they no longer urged them to become close, but he would never admit that.

It truly did hurt Darius when Ben would throw his random insults at him or how he would just sometimes flat out ignore him. Darius hated the way his heart would clench in his chest tightly at the hateful glances Ben would throw his way anytime he would act the other looking his way. Darius also hated the way he could feel his heart pounding rapidly against his body whenever Ben would just simply look at him, even if it was a hateful glare. Darius hated the way he couldn't help but love Ben. Darius hated that he loved the boy that hated
him so much.

Darius also hated the way worry would invade his whole being whenever he would wake up and Ben wasn't in the sleeping bag next to him or when he would go on those walks with bumpy. The seconds Ben was gone felt like minutes and the minutes felt like hours. Darius hated how worried he would get over Ben when the boy himself couldn't even care less about him. Darius hates how he would stay awake late at night, simply worrying over Ben. Hours of sleep all wasted on someone who hates him.