𝐈 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐞𝐝 // 𝐛𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐞 𝐞𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

46: new york

jules

i'm in new york for the second time this month, and im staying for a week exactly before going back home. billie is landing there a day after me, so ill have time to not look like an absolutely exhausted mess.

the distance has been weighing on both billie and i, i can feel it. we've had fights, talked about it and got over them yes, but it's different not actually being there to reassure each other. and what's worse is i feel like im the reason we're not in a great place right now, like im always the one that has to drive things to shit.

i keep telling myself that next week we'll be okay again, but there's this voice in my head that keeps telling me that it's not going to be. it's not going to be the same because i made it too hard to go back like that.

"you really aren't going to come here next month to see me?" hilton asked.

"no, the month after that for sure though, cause ill be finishing up the cafe. training some staff and all that." i replied. the cafe back at home is a little crowded with staff cause my new people are gaining experience from my ogs. i also presented all of them with opportunity to go to new york and work there for a while, but they all decided to stay which honestly surprised me. at the same time made me so fucking happy, the love the work environment they're in.

"what are you thinking of doing on your first night reuniting with billie? do we need to buy new lingerie?"
she raised a brow at me.

"maybe, but not on the first night. we have things to talk about, face to face and besides we almost never say hello with sex. i like that, we make sure that the emotional side of everything is good to go first." i shrugged.

"alex and i are the total opposite way." she widened her eyes.

"well that's because you guys already know each other so well. you communicate perfectly and you just can't wait till you see one another again." i replied. "billie and i are still... figuring it out." a year later.

"you'll get it eventually." she assured me. "the best thing you did was let your cafe manager take over the cafe's socials and you completely disconnect from the world."

"honestly, i agree."

"you don't need any of that kind of negativity around you. not ever and especially not now. you're under a lot of stress already." she commented.

"exactly, you get it." i shrugged. "now tell me... did you choose a date for the wedding? or are you still deciding!"

"we choose our anniversary date next year." she replied. "cause i feel like anniversaries just go by unnoticed the moment you get married and you focus of a new number of years. but like there's also this other beautiful day and i felt like it was necessary of us to have augest 25th be that date." she explained.

"it's a beautiful date with a beautiful meaning." i told her. "twenty five twenty five, it's also an aesthetically pleasing date, a lot of c section babies are going to be born then."

"i never thought of it that way!" she widened her eyes. "anyways, you can invite as many people as you want, billie is a mandatory though. after all i let you have a date in my back yard."

"that was really cool of you." i laughed.

"and claudia... well she's gonna get an invitation of her own. but you can invite the whole world for all i care, they're welcome." she told me.