Out of my Control

Chapter Nine

Katrina Stephens

Panic rises when I feel strong arms around me, until I remember what happened last night. That really happened! Johnny was not lying when he said he was not done with me. I think he drained me until I was dryer than the Sahara Desert. Looking at this man he is just too damn good to be true. What if this is it? He got what he wanted and then I will not see him again. Damn it! I knew this was going to happen. Overthinking everything that happened until it's suffocating me. Slipping out of his hold I wrap the sheet around me and almost curse at myself when I stare at his naked form. This man is perfect. I need air before I have a complete meltdown. Maybe I should just go and get this over with before he can break me more.

Stop being such a bitch, Katrina! No those are his words not mine. I really need to get over the insecurities he had instilled inside me before in ruins me.

Walking to the balcony I open the doors and welcome the fresh air to help me breathe easier. "I am worth more than what you did to me, you bastard." Tears threaten to fall but he does not deserve them anymore.

"Angel."

Shit! He cannot see me like this.

Johnny Meyers

A chill wrapped around my body, and I instinctively reach out for the warmth that was against me after many rounds of one of the best nights of my existence. Opening my eyes slight panic takes over thinking that she skipped out until I realize why I was cold. The sheet is gone, she's here somewhere. Thank God she didn't do a runner. Pulling on some sweats I almost stumble as my breath hitches. Standing on the balcony with my sheet wrapped around her perfect body. This woman has curves in all the right places that molds to me so perfectly. Katrina Stephens is a fucking Goddess.

It may be creepy, but I can't help myself as I grab my phone and take a picture. I want to remember this moment. If she wants me to delete it, I will but fuck, I hope she doesn't. Moving closer as not to startle and just stare a little bit more how the sun kisses her bare skin, as the light breeze blows her hair. She is my weakness. It may sound crazy but it's true.

"I am worth more than what you did to me, you bastard."

Freezing on the spot. Anger like I have never felt before fills my veins. Who the fuck would want to hurt her? If I ever get my hands on this bastard, I could do inexplicable things to him. Right now, is not the time because I know she needs me. She may not know it yet, but she does.

"Angel." Her body stiffens but she does not move. I move behind her and wrap my arms around her as she clutches the sheet tightly to her body. "Is everything alright?" Moving my lips to her neck leaving a light kiss against her skin.

"Yeah. I just needed some air." Her voice sounds void of emotion, but I relax some as she leans into my embrace. "Plus, I needed to move before I became too stiff. You did a number on me." I'm not the only one. I can still feel your lips wrapped around my...now is not the time to be thinking about that!

"Do you want me to run a bath for you?" Her doe like eyes gleam as she spins around in my hold facing me, but I do not miss the unshed tears swimming in her eyes.

"You don't have to." Don't you know by now that I would do anything for you?

"It's the least I can do." Maybe I went too far last night, I just couldn't stop. I never thought I could go for so long; it has never happened like that before. She is definitely someone special and I will make damn sure she knows it. "Come on angel." Her breath hitches as she buries her head on my chest.

"You are too good to be true." No man has treated her with the proper care she deserves. Kissing the top of her head I chuckle because I am just a man that is falling in love hard and fast.

Shit! I'm falling in love. I've never been in love before. Is it too soon? I'm not fucking sure, but this feels just too right not to be.

Scooping her up she lets out the quietest of giggles. "Johnny. I can walk." I would carry you everywhere if you'd let me. Setting the bath for her she lets the sheet fall as she steps inside. I never seen something so arousing in my life. I was no saint in high school or in college but there is something so alluring about her. I'm bewitched! Hypnotized, but I don't fucking care. "Are you coming in?" You are a damn seductress, and you do not even know it.

Her eyes roam over my body. I swear to all the deities out there Katrina if you keep looking at me like that, I will literally fuck you senseless. Bad Johnny! She deserves to be treated like a Queen. Taking my sweats off her cheeks tinge pink. So damn adorable and she doesn't even know it. Slipping in behind her I wrap my arms around her. "Perfect." She hums in response, leaning her head against my chest. "Stay the night with me again." I just don't want to let you go.

"I have work tomorrow." Tilting her head up I look down at her, my hand instinctively moves to skim my fingers over her neck.

"I'll drive you. Please." I never beg but I would for her. "I want to spend as much time with you as I can." Before I have to leave you. Her body stiffens and I'm sure she is thinking the same thing I just was.

"Let's just enjoy what we have right now." That won't do. "You are leaving soon." I know I am, but I will come back for you, if you want me to. "It's better this way."

My chest rumbles a loud groan escapes my throat. Her body shifts and I take this opportunity to turn her around. "You feel it." Pressing her hand against my chest. I know she feels it pounding so hard right now. My hand lands on hers as it mirrors my own. "You do this to me, Katrina. Don't deny us both what we both fucking feel!" I shouldn't get worked up but fuck!

"It's not that simple."

That's it! I may not be a violent man, but I will kill the fucker who made you this way. "It is. Let go of whatever fear you have."

Something flickers in her eyes. "I'm not scared."

"Bullshit!" She flinches and I feel like a fucking dick. Why the fuck are we arguing over this?! "I would never hurt you, love. I fucking adore you." Smashing my lips to hers she doesn't deny me, and I am so damn grateful for that. Her arms wrap around my neck as I deepen the kiss. I am going to lose control if she keeps rubbing against my dick like that. Moaning into the kiss she pulls away breathless. "You can't fucking deny this." I sure as hell can't!

"No." My heart sinks as she takes another breath. "I can't. I want to because I'm so damn scared, but I can't deny whatever this is between us."

"Thank fuck!" She laughs and I kiss her again holding her tightly to me. "We'll make this work."

"This is crazy." She laughs again but I just smile at my angel as I plant kisses all over her face. I truly adore this woman. "I'll stay."

It's a start but watch out Katrina Stephens because I am going to make you completely mine.