𝐈𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐲 | Levi Ackerman X Reader

| #29: Don't reject her marriage proposal (1) |

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This will be the first part of a multi-parter guys! I briefly explained it at the end of the chapter, but aside from that, there's not much else. Also, the word count for this chapter is slightly lower than previous chapters recently! Hope you guys like it!
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Your heart was racing against your ribcage and your breathing was short and ragged as you let your feet take you to the only place you could think of where you could get some peace and quiet.

You needed to hear yourself think and calm down before even thinking of heading back out there. You couldn't face anyone right now, and the realization hit you harder than you were prepared for. Zeke and Karina's speeches at the funeral should've been a dead give away of what would be awaiting you here and all you needed, was to breathe. Even if it was just for a second.

You needed to take a break urgently from what happened outside; from what Karina said to you, the chaos and commotion, the memories resurfacing back into your mind, and just overall the reminder that you just keep losing people left and right. You needed to cry, just cry your eyes out. Not holding back anymore. You couldn't pretend to everyone else that you were holding yourself up so high and strong because Karina made her point and you crumbled with her words in seconds.

You thought there was a slim chance everyone out there had come for Grisha, to mourn him and remember who he was. But no, they were all too absorbed in their own agendas to see it. You were the naive one, deluding yourself thinking that any of them out there could spare their resentment for one single event. It was all business, personal gain, taking advantage and getting ahead. It was all that mattered to them and it made you sick, and you didn't want to look at them.

You didn't know exactly how you were able to get to where you were planning to, but somehow, you looked up, your vision cleared and you saw that you were heading up the cobblestone path that led up to the entrance of Grisha's greenhouse.

You sighed and sped up your footsteps, not wanting to waste a second to get a moment to yourself. You reached the double doors of the greenhouse and pushed one of them open with a creak. Stepping inside, you closed the door behind you and then leaned back against it with a soft thud and a huff.

You eventually reached the double doors of the greenhouse, pushed one of the doors open with a creak, stepped inside, closed the door behind you and then leaned back against it. You tipped your head back and closed your eyes as your chest rose and fell with physical and mental exhaustion. What helped calm your mind the most was the soothing sound of greenery around you. The sounds of birds chirping. The sounds of nature in general were helping all tension leave your body.

But when you opened your eyes back up, all of that tension returned in your body as a bittersweet and hurtful feeling settled in your chest. You wanted to come here to escape, but now that you're here, you realized exactly what this place represented.

You haven't come back here since you found Grisha dead in the place he loved the most, which is where you're standing right now. This place wasn't the warm, comforting refuge it used to be. All it is now is a reminder of what Grisha left behind, where he took his last breath, where Eren lost his dad, where you found him. That was the moment your world turned upside down for good, with no chance of recovery.

As your eyes slowly trailed around all the plants that were slowly losing their vibrance, vigor and life just from a couple days of being unattended, that same void in your heart returned. You looked over to the platform where all of his supplies are still exactly as Grisha had left them and nobody has touched them. You knew from that detail that nobody has dared to come in here.

The sun was pouring in through the windows since it was noon already, and it highlighted the beauty behind the effort that was put into this entire greenhouse. Finally finding the strength to move forward, you peeled yourself away from the doors and slowly started taking steps further into the greenhouse as you marveled in how strong these plants still stood.