Lost love

~9~ Stuck

Raven's POV

The days after my breakdown, I didn't want to do anything. The other guys who were living in the house, gave me a room. It was still grey, there only stood a bed where I sat on for a few days. Sleeping, just sitting and staring at the grey empty depressing wall. I was here for nearly a week now, but I didn't come out of my room after I went in it. The only thing I had eaten was one apple. I still starved myself. One of the guys who lived here, named Valentine, gave up trying to let me eat and didn't came in anymore. I didn't like that at all. And the worst of al I didn't see him since I went here. He still didn't tell his name. I asked Valentine for it, he answered he had to tell it himself. Now, I was just walking around my room, don't know what to do. I still hated myself, I wasn't flying, I was falling. Falling in a deep black hole, when you stepped in it you'll never come out. I wanted to come out, seriously it might be looking like I don't but I want to. And at the same time, I didn't, I also just want to stay in the hole, keep falling till I hit the ground and went unconscious or something. I stood up, my legs trembling. Maybe... maybe I have to eat something, I don't want to be in hospital again. I walk to the door and open it. Light comes in my eyes, it kind of hurts. I hear the voices of some guys here. And footsteps coming out of other rooms. I'm not sure anymore, maybe I just have to go in here again. Too late, I think by myself. I walk to the stairs, but I can't go down. I'm to weak.. I fall down the stairs. "OUCH", I scream. The door of the hallway opens and a few faces are looking at me. I'm breathing slowly, I'm too dizzy to get up myself. "Raven you okay? ", I recognize his voice and feel butterflies, again. "Y-yes", I say. He takes my hand and helps me to get up. Someone hands me some food and I eat it. Trying to avoid crying again. "It's okay", Toby says (one of the other guys). Those words are awful, always when someone says it I break down crying. This time I just didn't care, I broke down crying in "his" arms, I was shocked I did something like that, but it's felt okay. He blushed and hugged me. "Shhh", he says. I calmed down a bit. "By the way, my name is Youri", he whispered in my ear. That was the moment I fell hard, not in the black hole, no I fell in love this time completely. It was like you fell asleep, slowly and then... all at once.