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Worth the wait update, I guess. May laman naman po ito kahit papano. Enjoy reading.
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Jongin

Kyungsoo will always be Kyungsoo. Minahal ko sya, kasi ganon sya. Alam kong hindi ako naging upright kanina. Luhan was hurt, and Kyungsoo has the right to get angry. Alam ko yon. Kasi ganon yung naramdaman ko kay Luhan at Baekhyun the moment I realize that Sehun and Chanyeol hyung is being miserable because of them. Lalo na yung nangyari kay Sehun ngayon... I lost control. The first time.

Si Sehun, hindi parin nag kaka malay, though he is stable now. Hindi pa sigurado kung kailan sya magigising at makakaramdam nanaman ng sakit. Luhan? I don't know what happened to him. Basta ang alam ko kinabukasan, nakauwi na sya.
Hindi ko pa rin lubos maisip kung ano bang nangyari kay Luhan. May dugo, I clearly saw blood pooling from his thigh. That caught me offguard. Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari. Hindi ko alam kung anong irereact ko.

"Chanyeol hyung. Anong ipapabili mo? Bababa akong canteen."

"Wala. Busog pa ko. Makita palang kita, sapat na."

"Pakyu."

Lumabas ako at sumkay ng elevator para bumaba na papuntang lobby. Palabas na ko ng elevator ng mapansin kong parang pamilyar na taong papunta dito. Baekhyun.

May kausap sya sa phone kaya mukang hindi nya ko napansin.

"May schedule ako kay Dr. Zhang ngayon. Luhan needs bed rest. Ikaw din Soo. Pano pa lalaki yang soosoo mo kung hindi ka kakain."

Dr. Zhang? Sino ba yon? Parang pamilyar.

"Pakitawag narin si Dr. Zhang!"

Kyungsoo said it when Luhan almost lost conciousness. Ano bang role nya dito? Agad akong pumunta sa nurse station to ask about Dr.Zhang.

"Aaah, si Dr. Zhang Joonmyeon po ba? Sa third floor po ang clinic nya. Magpa appointment nalang po kayo sa secretary nya para makapag pa check up kayo."

Tumango nalang ako. Pupunta ako mamaya. This time, I won't let Sehun and Chanyeol face the pain alone. I'll try to ease it by helping them.

Pagkatapos kong kumain sa canteen ay agad akong nag punta sa third floor. Hinanap ko ang clinic nya at nakita ko naman agad. Sya lang kasi ang nag iisang pinto na kulay pink sa buong floor.

I walk in to face his secretary. "Andyan ba si Dr. Zhang?"

"Yes. Ano pong kailangan nila?" Natawa naman ako. Di ba pwedeng kaya ako nandito para mag pa check up, doktor sya. Alangan namang nandito ko para mag paturong magdrive.

"Mag papa checkup sana ko." Kumunot naman ag noo ng babae. "Sigurado po ba kayong si Dr. Zhang ang hinahanap nyo? I guess you got it wrong sir, OB-gyn po si Dr.Zhang."

Muka akong tanga. I sat down to calm myself. Bakit nakikipag kita si Baek at Luhan sa isang OB?! What the fuck is happening. Imposible namang buntis sila. Fuck, wala sila matris, atleast si Kyungsoo wala, large intestine lang.

Pero ang mas ikinagulat ko ng biglang lumabas si Baekhyun galing sa loob ng clinic. He was looking at me, shocked etched on his face. "Jongin?"

"Baek, please explain what's this all about."

We were at the garden...

"Buntis ka?!"

"Alam kong mahirap paniwalaan, pero yon ang totoo."

I look at him and he was shaking. He looked back and held my hands.

"Please, Jongin. Wag mo sanang sabihin to kay Chanyeol. Lalo lang syang masasaktan. He doesn't deserve me. He was hurting."

"Sinong ama?"

His grip slowly loosen in my hands. He's not looking at me. "Hindi si Chanyeol hyung?!"

"Si Luhan."

Hindi ko alam kung pano mag rereact. Parang bombang bigla nalang sumabog lahat ng sinasabi nya. LUHAN?! SILANG DALAWA?

"That's a mistake. Hindi ko sinsadya. We were drunk. Akala ko sya si Chanyeol and he thinks the same. Akala nya ako si Sehun. Hindi ko akalain na aabot sa point na mabubuntis ako... at sya. We were guys for fuck sake.

"I tried telling Chanyeol about it, pero huli na. I learn that I was pregnant. Natakot ako Jongin... natakot akong magsalita, natakot akong saktan si Yeol. He was everything to me. Pero hindi sapat yon... there's me and this little life in my womb."

"Pero hyung, kung ayaw mo syang saktan, tell him the truth, everything. Kung mahal mo talaga sya."

Umiling sya. He was crying. I can see his pain. Bakit ba nangyari tong lahat? Bakit umabot sa point na to. " Hyung, he was miserable as fuck. Hindi ko alam kung ako ba dapat ang magsabi sayo. Pero he was planning to propose to you. He wanted to spend his lifetime with you. Nung pang 1000 days nyo, he will proposed."

"Jongin, hindi ko alam."

"Nung gabing yon, nagwala sya. He trashed and shout. Sehun was nowhere to see. Hindi ko alam kung si Chanyeol hyung ba ang aasikasuhin ko o hahanapin ko muna si Sehun. Everything was set up. Nakaayos na lahat. Ikaw na lang ang kulang."

"Hindi sya nag paramdam sakin. I was hospitalized, pero hindi manlang sya dumating. I crave for him tapos malalaman kong mag kasama sila ni Nana and he denied it."

Misunderstanding! Lahat to bunga ng misunderstanding. Ng lintik na hindi pagkakaunawaan na yan.

"Everybody was helping him. Hindi lang si Nana ang kasama nya. Lahat kami, pati si Taeyeon-noona at Dara-noona! We were there!"

Lalo lang syang umiyak. Damn it! Ang tanga tanga nilang lahat! "Now hyung, please be brave to tell Chanyeol about it."

Umiling lang sya. "Hindi ko kaya."

"Hindi nya alam kung anong ginawa nya sayo. Hindi nya alam ang dahilan. Sinisisi nya ang sarili nya sa pag hihiwalay nyo."

Tumayo sya at tumalikod.

"Hindi ko kaya."

"Ako ang magsasabi!"

Humarap sya sakin at lumuhod na ikinagulat ko. Anong—

"Jongin wag! Please. Wag."

"Tumayo ka dyan Hyung! Please!"

"Wag mong sabihin Jongin! He might hate the baby! Ayos nang sakin lang sya galit pero hindi sa baby ko! He might hate Luhan! AYOKONG MAGALIT SYA KAY LUHAN! Please Jongin!!!"

I look at him still kneeling in front of me. Good thing walang tao sa garden.

"Hyung, mahal mo na ba si Luhan ?"

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