What If? [Divergent] ✔️

2//the first aptitude test

[tobias' pov]

I wake up in my Abnegation bed, in my Abnegation house, in my Abnegation life.

Is this what I really want? I ask myself.

What? Why am I even asking that question? Of course I want this, I'll always be in Abnegation.

But will you? What if the aptitude test gives you different results? A tiny voice asks.

But why would it? I ask the tiny voice in my head.

Maybe you're not Abnegation.

Wait, what??? Since when have I been thinking these things, even remotely considering them possible?

But, the rational side of me thinks, what if I'm not actually Abnegation?

I shake my head to clear my thoughts, get out of bed, and put the faction thoughts out of my head, figuring I will decide once I get my results.

I put on my gray clothing and walk downstairs to get some breakfast. I enter the kitchen and see my father and mother talking together at the kitchen table, breaking apart when they hear me come in.

"Good morning Tobias! Excited?" my father asks.

"Uhh, sure" I mumble, not really sure, thoughts swirling through my head at a million miles an hour.

I sit down and eat my breakfast in silence, just nodding when my dad says he's going to go cut the whole neighborhood's lawns.

I have finished my breakfast by now, and look at my mother, whose sitting across from me.

She looks at me and smiles. "Tobias, honey, I know you're worried and excited and scared about your results, but just know, it's ok whatever the results you get, or whatever you choose, because we will be able to come visit you if you decide to transfer."

I smile weakly at her as I go over what she said in my head.

I mean, if I don't end up getting Abnegation, I could always transfer and see my parents whenever I wanted to.

But what if you get Abnegation but still want to transfer? That nasty little inside voice asks again.

I, I - wait what?!! Ok, why is this so confusing? I'll just, just, make a spur of the moment decision! Or I'll do whatever the test says! Or, or, I just don't know anymore. I think weakly, trying to figure out what to do.

I'll just see what the aptitude test says, and go from there. I'm not sure if this is a good plan, but I finally just decide on that anyways.

I come out of my thoughts and realize my mom has left the table.

I clean up the dishes and tidy the kitchen and living area before going upstairs. I'm walking into my room to get my coat when my mom asks,"Ready?"

I slip on my gray jacket and answer, "Sure" I walk out of my room and my mom puts an arm around me briefly.

I smile at her thinking about what will happen in the next few hours.

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"Tobias Eaton!"

I rub my hands on my gray khakis and stand up nervously, going into Room 4, as directed.

I walk in and see a woman with tan-ish skin and long black curly hair. It flows in a way that looks effortless and I can't help but notice her tattoos peek out of her black t-shirt.

"Hi, my name is Tori and I will be your aptitude test instructor."

She smiles and I immediately feel a little lighter inside, starting to anticipate the test.

"Hi I'm To-" I'm cut off as Tori says "Tobias Eaton, yeah I know."

Okay then, people know who I am, I can get used to that?? I never really had too many friends at school, and I always focused on doing all the Abnegation deeds.

Well duh, of course people know who you are, your mother is the head of Abnegation! The nasty voice of mine says.

Alright, alright I get the point, it's cool, okay? I stop fighting with myself as Tori turns away from me and starts loading a syringe.

"I am going to insert you with a simulation serum, in which you will make a series of choices that will decide which faction you belong in."

She explains this, and finishes with the syringe as I nod to acknowledge her.

I sit on the chair as Tori plunges the needle into my neck.