Broken

Chapter 9

I couldnt sleep at all that night. So I watched him sleep until dawn. Sighing I got up and started making my morning coffee the only thing that was going to keep me going this day. Lookng at Harry one last time I made my way towards the back deck. Its going to be so awkward when he wakes up. What was I going to even say! I was so deep in thought that I didnt even notice the stricking young man walk out to the back porch and sit down in the chair next to me. He touched my arm and I jumped not noticing he was there. A small laugh came from him. I didnt even smie. He was acting like nothing was even wrong! I looked at him real long making it known that he needed to explain for last nights incident. He sighed. "Listen Ell I'm really sorry for last night, it was way out of line. It was just a long day and I made some stupid mistakes". Tears began to roll down my cheeks. He had no idea how much he had scared me.

Harry got up from his chair and picked me up from my chair, I didn't want him to even touch me I was so mad. But I didn't protest when he carried me up to my room and laid me down in my bed then curled up next to me. We just laid there for awhile not facing each other. Finally I turned and he turned I caressed his face. I looked deep in his emerald eyes and kissed his forehead. "Please don't ever scare me like that again Harry". His eyes filled with sorrow and he tucked his face under my neck. "I won't. But there's something I need to tell you". I shivered from his words I could tell this wasn't going to be a very heart warming talk. Building up courage I shook my head signaling him to begin. "I haven't been involved in the best stuff lately. Before I met you I had been sleeping around and doing drugs. Anything to keep the stress away". I sucked in a breath. Jealousy filled me when he mentioned sleeping around I quickly pushed it aside when he lifted up his face and looked like a little boy who needed guidance. "What's causing you so much stress Harry"? I had a feeling I knew the answer but I wanted to hear him say it. His eyes got real serious. " Ell this fame is killing me, I don't get any privacy and management controls my life. It's just to much. And last night was the worst I felt since we've been dating I shouldn't have come here". My heart became pained as I watched the man I loved began to cry into my shirt. I began playing with his hair and whispering how much I loved him into his ear.

After about ten minutes of that I told him to look at me. When he did his eyes were all red and his cheeks were flushed. He looked so young. My eyes flickered down to his swollen lips. Now was not a time for this but I couldn't control myself. I kissed his lips and I felt all the signs of stress melt from his body. He sighed and rolled on the top of me. Barely holding any of his weight up. Our kiss deepened. Our breathes fast and heavy. I tugged at the bottom of his shirt giving him a hint to take it off. He took it off so fast and smiled down at me. Our lips connected again. A thought registered in my head this was not the time to do this! He had just confessed all his problems to me and here I was being selfish trying to get in his pants...I pulled away. Harry's face looked confused. "What is it Love?" I wanted him even more after he called me that. Damn him. "Now just isn't the best time to do this, sorry for starting it". My face heated up. A small smile showed up on his face. "I understand, but Ell don't be sorry anytime is a great time to make out with you". He winked at me. I rolled my eyes and swatted him off of me. "Take me out for breakfast Harry". I smiled my cheesiest smile at him. "Fine". He picked me up and threw me over his shoulder. "Harry put me down!" He just laughed and and carried me outside to the car never putting me down till I was in the passengers seat. He got in next to me and started the vehicle. I had a feeling today was going to be a great day. I watched as the curly haired boy next to me concentrated on the road. He looked deep in thought. Oh how I wish I could take all the pain and stress away from him.