Within The Flames Of Anger (book One Of The Fire Series)

Chapter 4

Chapter 4: (edited)

I woke up the next morning only to see alexander was not thee, the space he was sleeping in was cold and lonely, this is not what I want to wake up to for the rest of my life. An empty bed, no husband to wish me good morning or no perfect eyes to see when I open mines.

I got out of bed and headed to the bathroom, there was a new toothbrush and some fresh underwear and clean clothes, but I already had clothing. The skirt was lovely and the shirt very beautiful, but why where these? I put on the shower before going under the hot water and washed my hair, I noticed on my wrist was a bruise, I must’ve gotten it yesterday when alexander grabbed my wrist. Yesterday.

yesterday was the worst day I’ve ever lived, was alexander always like this or only towards me? Now to be honest, I’m really scarred of him but not just any fear, the fear of falling in love with him during our marriage only to be rejected in the end. but one thing is I feel like I understand him, when I don’t. why is this all so confusing, why am I trying to think about the person who would go through any length to keep me away from him.

I got out the shower and dried myself before dressing myself and going towards the kitchen, there alexander was making breakfast for himself, “why did you do that to me Natalia?” I heard him mutter, whose Natalia? Was she the reason he turned? He became like this?

“why did you have to do that; why did you have to make me the person I am today? Now I can’t be happy, even if I wanted to? Goddamit I curse the day I fell in love, I curse the day I met you?” he carried on speaking to himself, now I really want to know more about this Natalia. But love? It hurt knowing his heart was with someone else, but why did I feel jealous? All these why’s are killing me and I want answers, but every time a question is solved a new one arises.

I pretended to walk in just then, when he saw me his face turned to disgust, but you could see the hint of anger in his eyes. Why is he so angry? He walked past me and sat by the barstool, eating his breakfast, I walked to the cupboard looking for cereal, when I saw it up high, I tried reaching for it, my wrist still hurt from yesterday’s pressure and there was no way I was going to ask alexander, he might get angry at me again so I took one of the barstools and placed it near the cupboard. I then stepped up to get it, just as I took it the barstool moved and I lost my balance, I was waiting to bruise my back on the hard ground, but I never felt it, when I opened my eyes alexander was behind me holding me bridal style, he put me back on my feet. He looked like he was about to have a heart attack.

“what the hell is wrong with you? You could’ve hurt yourself badly by falling from that height, you-” he sounded genuine before freezing. he froze and looked like he saw something, that was bad.

“d-did I do that to you?” he asked, me confused decided to ask “do what?” he looked pale.

He then pointed to my wrist where the bruise was “did I hurt you, did I give you that bruise?” he asked demand laced in his voice

“it was an accident? You didn’t mean to hurt me and by the way it’s just a scratch it’ll heal soon” I tried hiding my fear and said smiling towards him, but he looked angry

“does that look okay!” he yelled at me “I hurt you and you try to tell me that it was an accident? What if I hurt you really badly? Then? Tell me? Were you gonna smile at me like you do, tell me Natalie!” by the time he said that, he regretted what he said, I felt my heart shatter I felt hurt, his eyes turned red and he looked absolutely angry “urghh” he exclaimed, he then lifted his hand as if he were to slap me, I turned my head to the side, I waited for the impact, but when I opened my eyes he had a pained expression on his face.

“d-did you the-think I was going to hit you” he said, you could hear the pain in his voice. “when I looked up at him, I was scared, I was hurt, I was everything.  tears rolled down my eyes and just then he walked away like nothing happened, he didn’t even look back to try and apologise, and that’s what hurt most. I broke down and ran to the room, then I went to the bathroom and locked myself in it. Mrs. Stills came to the door and knocked on it

“Felecia dear please open the door, open the door dear, I know what alexander did was wrong, but please find it in your heart to forgive him, after all you two are o get married” she tried persuading me to get out, but I just sat there and cried.

“can you please leave me for some time alone Mrs. Stills- I mean mom, I’ll come out when I feel alright” I told her honestly

“ok dear, I’ll leave” she sounded hurt, before I heard her footsteps faded away. I got up and looked at myself in the mirror, before my back hit the wall and I cried.

**************

Completed and edited! Hope you liked it!