Confused ,

secrets.....

I dropped the test, and just stared.

"what happened? "

"I'm pregnant "

Chresanto came to me and held me close. I cried for so long , his entire shirt was wet.

" I mean but this isn't entirely bad sis "

"it's not, but it was just to early. my whole life is about to change. "

"hey, you got a good man, a good house, good friends and family, and good money. you straight, what could go wrong? "

" I already have to take care of Jacob like he's a child, I don't need another one.I won't be able to do anything. "

"it's okay. you always got me " he said holding me.

"I know , I just don't think I'm ready " I said sobbing.

"it's okay, it's okay just take it one step at a time "

"your the only person that knows and I want it to stay that way "

"I'm not gone tell if u don't want me to "

"thank you "

" just be careful. you want me to drive you home? "

"no, I'll be okay " I said getting my stuff together..

"kay, call me if you need anything and I mean anything " he said walking me to the door.

"I'll abuse that power "

"oh and Londyn... "

"yeah? "

"can u get your pee stick off the floor? "

"you know a pregnant lady shouldn't bend over "

"you ain't big yet "

"fine " I said bending over and picking it up.

"Kay, I'm leaving now. be safe. "

"you too sis "

I got in the car and drove home. Jacob was home.

"hey babe, where you coming from? "

" Chresantos house "

"oh okay, you want pizza tonight ?"

" yeah "

"okay. "

Ugh I forgot I can't eat any greasy foods.

"um Jacob. I'm not hungry "

Craig walked in the room.

"that's a first "

"shut up Craig. go call your girlfriend and tell her to come over. "

he looked at me with a straight face.

"oh yeah you cant huh? she's in Paris right "

"man shut up! "

"yeah ".

Jacob walked back in.

"so you don't want anything? "

"not right now "

"okay, I'll be back. "

I lit some candles and got in my bubble bath and thought to my self.

There's another person freaking growing inside of me... I can't do anything... no more fights... no more junk food....no more sex! fuck, I don't even wanna think about it.

I got out the tub and put on my favorite pajamas and went downstairs with Craig and sat on the couch.

"you want some? " he said passing me some ice cream.

"umm no thanks "

"is there something wrong? "

" of ccourse nnot "

"your studdering "

"so ".

"what you mean so? girl so you lying "

I needed to think of something to say that wouldn't be a lie. but wouldn't reveal the truth.

"why do you think I'm lying? "

"because your studdering "

"no I am not "

" are you okay girl? "

"if you want me to be "

"whatever "

* 2 weeks later *

I've been working out for the past two weeks, and eating salads. I usually work out around 6 in the morning when Jacob is gone and Craig is sleep. I just finished my workout and walked in the house. Craig was still asleep, I got in the shower.

When I got out the shower and changed it was 6:30 and Craig was sitting on my bed.

"what are you doing up so early? "

"what are you doing up so early Londyn ? "

"just jogging "

"you've been waking up like this everyday for a while now "

" just felt like I should start loosing weight.. "

"lies "

"no, I could get fat "

"Londyn "

"yeah "

"your pregnant aren't you? "

"ppregnant ? of ccourse not "

" why the hell didn't you tell me? "

"I was scared Craig "

"of what? "

" I don't know "

"have you been to the doctor? "

"no "

"what the fuck girl, go to the doctor and check on that baby".

" I am "

"come on I'm taking you now. "

I went downstairs and got in the car.....