Settling (Quil Ateara story)

All I Want

"No! Absolutely not!" I yelled at Quil. "We may be in a relationship but you don't demand me." We had been arguing over this for the past twenty minutes.

"I'm not. I'm simply want you to go stay on the reservation until all of this is over."

"No." I repeated.

"Why? At least tell me why you won't."

"Because I don't want to. I'm perfectly okay being at my own house."

"Gertie."

"Stay out of this Edward!" I yelled glaring at him for trying to get into it. "I'm not going. Quil."

"It will make me feel better, to know that you are safe."

"Safe, on your land  though. Right?" He nodded. "I understand that, but this isn't my fight. I don't have to go hide. When something like this happens I always stay in my own home, which is what I'm going to do. You can either agree or go home."

I rolled over and covered my head trying to stay warm after waking up. It was the same dream for weeks now. I hadn't seen Quil all summer because i wasn't allowed. Especially after Bella made her decision to actually marry my brother.Then there's the part where I may have over reacted, so I was embarrassed and didn't want to confront him ever again.

"I think you do." I jumped hearing Edwards voice in my room. 

"Can you go please."

"Gertie. You have to understand that your safty-"

"I don't want to hear it! Just get out of my room and stay the hell out of my head!" I yelled after I got out of bed and pushed him out. I felt like this was all his fault, and it was. It was because of him that I wasn't allowed to visit Quil. He still didn't trust them along with Rose, Jasper and the last person I expected, Emmett.

And then to top it off, school had started, Bella and Edward were getting married today and honestly with all the college applications and keeping my grades up, I've been busy avoiding all of it, and sometimes it didn't to the point where i have a few people hate me. It's kept me from thinking of him, but I knew one thing for sure. I was going to confront him when Edward leaves for his honeymoon.

"It's time to get ready." I rolled my eyes at Alice and just did as she said. I didn't want to deal with her criticism or her complains. "So, it's going to rain later." This time I internally rolled my eyes as she doesn't did my makeup and arose started in Bella's hair.

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"Hi Seth." I politely smiled, when he was left alone. "How is he?" He just shook his head making me feel guilty, and I hated it.

"I need to see him. Can you tell him for me?"

"Of course."

"Thank you." I hugged him before walking away so that I wouldn't have to be seen by any of my members...Or be heard by Edward.

"Querida,Gertrude. How are you?" I was greeted greeted by my favorite spanish vampire.

"Carmen! Eleazar!" I hugged them tightly. "I can't believe you actually came."

"Of course. Bella's part of the family now, and Edward found his mate. We wouldn't miss this. But look at you. You've grown so much since I last saw you and you look even more beautiful."

"Thank you." I blushed, trying not to laugh.

"So, we hear you have a boyfriend and changed your mind. Is he here?"

"Um, no. He isn't. I didn't invite him." I technically lied because yes, I didn't invite him, but I didn't tell them about him being a werewolf or that we we aren't on speaking terms. "I'm sure he would of came."

"Excuse me." Came Edwards voice. "Gertie, can I have this dance?"

No, I answered mentally. "Excuse me." I politely excused my self and walked around all of them to go anywhere else, but Edward already had a grip on me and was leading me to the dance floor.

"Why don't you dance with Bella? You know, your wife."

"What's gotten into you?"

"Oh, me? Nothing, just trying to get on with my life. I have nine months until I turn 17. The least I could do is live as human as possible right. I read online that teens go through a rebellious stage. I mean, I might as well, right? Because then id have lived as a human for nothing. No human experiences. I'm basically Bella." I faked a smile and then turned it into a glare. "Have fun on your honey moon." I walked away leaving him on the dance floor.

"Oh, no you don't."

"Ugh." I groaned at Emmett's voice. I was so close to being off the dance floor when he pulled me back and forced me to dance. He knew i'd do nothing to embarrass myself in front of these people, so i had to, which is why i had stayed with Edward for only a few seconds.

"You know your acting like a brat?"

"Why do I get the feeling you want to say something else?"

"Maybe, because I do." He spun me. "You know, you may not realize this, but this is all on you. You made your choice, and letting out the anger on us is not the way to go. You know? Being suspended for getting into fights is not you."

I looked up at him shocked.

"What? You thought I wouldn't find out? I was the one who answered the phone every single time. The worst part was having to tell Esme and see the the look of disappointment written all over it."

i scoffed. "Your just trying to make me feel bad."

"Look-" i cut him off.

"I need to see him."

"That's not happening." He answered making me sigh in defeat while I walked away from all of this. I walked inside avoiding anyone who tried to stop me. I went up to my room and got out of the stupid dress I had been wearing. I simply threw on some jeans and a plain white t-shirt, with a red zip up sweater.

Right when I was done with my shoes, I reached for my car keys that sat on my desk and made my way down stairs towards the back exit. At the moment everyone was wishing Edward and Bella good bye. So all I had to do was wait for them to go back to the main reception before I could leave, which was perfect because i had to get my car out of the garage and so my family would be busy saying good bye while other turning their cars on were helping my sound like i'm one of them.

In less than ten minutes, I was on the highway driving to La Push with the strong rain hitting. I was going to see the guy I love an nobody was going to stop me. Not even my siblings who were already calling me, so I shut off my phone. Quil is my life, and my family trying to protect me by keeping them from by keeping me from him is what's actually hurting me.

As soon as I came into view of his home, I walked out of my car and fought myself as I walked under the rain. I was making myself towards his window, and when I did manage to reach it, i tripped, my rib landing on a fire wood, but either way I continued now a bit angry and started knocking. I was completely drenched and cold, but i don't care. This was all for him. 

"Gertie? What are you do-" I couldn't help myself. As soon as his window was fully open i pulled him close, wrapping my hands around him and kissed him like if i were going to lose him. And to my surprise he didn't pull away and kissed back.

"I love you. I do. I love you with all my heart, and i'm sorry. I'm sorry i never admitted it. I'm sorry i didn't come sooner. I wasn't allowed to and every time i did Edward and Alice would stop me."

"I don't care. You're here now, that's all that matters." He kissed one more time. "Get inside." He demanded. Once i climbed in slowly, i didn't care about being cold or the fact that i could get sick. I just knew i wanted him.