March 21, 2016 » Monday » 9:14 p.m.
I'm so tired of faking me.
I wanna just scream out to the world who I really am.
I wanna have this whole speech about I I'm ******* but I can't do that because if I did people would fu#king judge me.
I'm not normal I'm not pretty or skinny like the rest of you
Man I wish I had
******'s body
I wish I had ****'s smile
I wish I had ******'s hair
I wish I had ****'s laugh
I wish I had *****'s likeability
I wish I had ****'s height
I wish I had all of their qualitys put into me.
Then maybe I would love myself.
It sucks always worrying about your weight.
Or always worrying about how you look.
I fu#king sucks starving yourself only having a bottle of water, granola bar, and like 5 bites of dinner.
That's usually my routine and so far ita been working I've 10 pounds.
And I hope to lose more.
And more and more.
My goal weight is about 75 pounds or lower.
Then I would be like 30% more happy with myself.
But for now I hate everything about me.
I wish people would accept me for me.
And some people do but I don't.
Aw fu#k my insomnia is keeping me up. I need my medication.
Well good night guys see you tomorrow🌚🔮
