SixLittle Darling
I don't feel anymore. Or at least that's what I think. My thoughts and emotions are blocked by walls of self hatred and remorse. Of how I should've been there for you do how I should've known what was going on with you.
The last few before your death you would ignore me or just put a smile to fool me. I am ashamed to say I was fooled. I didn't see through you sooner. I wish I had and I could.
I mean the late night outs weren't you. And the bruises weren't you either.
I should have known because whenever I asked you would just laugh and say you were a growing boy, it was normal to have fights.
My god what a shitty sister I've been. After all what you've done for me. After all what you've given up for me.
I couldn't do the one thing I was supposed to do.
Care.
I deserve everything I am going through. I deserve mom's words of how much of a brat I am. Of how much of a selfish person I actually am.
Mom was right. She has always been right. I am nothing but self sentenced cynical girl who knows nothing but herself.
I deserve all the hate the world can bring. I deserve all the scars that I have brought on me.
But I am not breaking my promise to you. I am not going back to that time because no matter how much I hate myself right now I could never betray you by turning back to the razor.
I can't bare your disappointment. Even if you're gone. But I am scared.
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Little Darling
Short StoryIn which a girl mourns the loss of everything she had. Alana just lost her brother, and as she tries to cope with his death, she writes him letters, because it is the only way that she can communicate with him. Later on she realizes that something d...