The Devil Who Danced At Midnight

katharine

3:14 PM

Stop staring at me, Faulkerson.

3:20 PM

You've been doing it the whole day. Stop. I mean it.

3:22 PM

Hindi ka na galit? :) :) :) :)

3:24 PM

I don't get mad at people.

3:25 PM

If I were in front of you last night you would have cut my balls off

3:26 PM

What you saw is just an outburst. Sorry. Won't happen again

3:28 PM

Okay lang na magalit sa akin, Mendoza, when I'm being stupid.

3:30 PM

Stupid? You? What a joke.

3:34 PM

I might be gifted in academics and I understand people, but not all of them.

3:35 PM

I know. I'm hard to understand.

3:35 PM

I didn't mean it that way!

3:45 PM

I'm used to it anyway, Faulkerson. Okay lang talaga. I'm fine with it. 

3:50 PM

Mendoza... :(

3:52 PM

The sad face doesn't suit you, Faulkerson. Get over it.

3:58 PM

Can I drive you home?

4:10 PM

Yes.

11:43 PM

You're quiet the whole drive.

11:57 PM

I'm sorry. I was just tired the whole day. Hindi ko kasi na-take 'yung vitamins ko this morning so I had no energy at all.

12:08 AM

How hard it is, Mendoza?

12:12 AM

This doesn't happen often, so I don't know. Medyo lutang lang ako kaninang umaga.

12:15 AM

How hard it is to say that you're so disappointed in me and in what I did?

12:17 AM

I'm not.

12:20 AM

You obviously are.

12:22 AM

Okay, a little bit. Ayoko lang talagang sabihin because I don't think you're used to people who say they're disappointed in you since, well, everything you do is perfect.

12:25 AM

But I messed up bigtime and of all people I offended, it's you.

12:29 AM

I'm fine with it, Faulkerson. I told you. Okay lang.

12:32 AM

Parang labas sa ilong 'yung okay lang.

12:34 AM

Ano bang gusto mo? Labas sa ngala-ngala? Atay? Balun-balunan? I'm not one of those emo girls who say they're okay when they're not. I don't need to lie. I'll say my feelings out loud if needed.

12:37 AM

I guess I wasn't enough for you to be honest with me.

12:40 AM

What?

12:42 AM

Stop lying, Mendoza. You're a person. It's okay.

12:45 AM

I'm not getting any of this.

12:50 AM

Hindi mo nagegets o ayaw mo lang igets?

12:52 AM

Why wouldn't I want to arrive at your point?

12:54 AM

Oh, well, maybe something that sounds like defense mechanism?

12:55 AM

Defense mechanism for?

12:56 AM

People.

3:09 AM

At 3:07, Nicomaine Mendoza, when most people are afraid because of the movie Conjuring, your face popped into my head and I instantly smiled.

Yes, I am thinking about you right now. And I'm... kinda... smiling uncontrollably as I think of you. Please don't find me creepy. Seriously, I've been searching all my encyclopedias why I'm like this and found nothing. I'd patiently wait for your nut to crack.

3:12 AM

I'm not the sweet kind of person, and I sometimes say the wrong words... but my silent shoulder is all that I can offer. You can trust me, Mendoza - always. We'd do the trusting part slowly. You'd trust me with your words, your thoughts...

... and then yourself.

So we'd be fair because I already am.

Just me and my three am thoughts of you. Don't worry. It's nothing perverted. 

3:20 AM

Ps. I have those thoughts around twelve midnight