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  the standard definition of anxiety is this: "a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome."

last night was one of the worst nights ive had in over a year, 

i was plagued with anxiety the moment i walked into my house,
and it didn't seem to fade with a shower,
or tea,
or even my favorite killers album, 

unnecessary fear surged through me like fire,
and when i laid my head down to sleep,
my head would not stop yelling unrealistic but terrifying scenarios,

mom told me to snap out of it,
and i almost snapped her neck in half, 

anxiety is not something you can control,
i don't think im being cute, and i sure as hell am not doing it for attention, 

anxiety is almost impossible to explain,
anxiety is this;

going go the doctors office at 2pm with your stomach in knots,
and nausea in the pit of your stomach,
finding out that it was no big deal,
and then feeling like crap for making it all about you.  


All Credit goes to original writer;  http://hellopoetry.com/carton/

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