Reincarnation

Outside Writing

Hello. I'm still alive, barely. I know it's been almost two months since I last updated, and I figured I should tell you guys why. 

Honestly, the thought of discontinuing Reincarnation has crossed my mind more than a few times. I was actually very close to making a public announcement on that matter..but I have always hesitated. 

You guys deserve better, Blue and Alexander deserve better too because I promised him a happy ending. 

The reason why it took me so long to open up about this because it has a lot to do about my personal life, plus it's a really long and complicated story. 

Emotionally speaking, I didn't have the ideal childhood. I wouldn't want to go into details but whatever happened back then hasn't ended up until now. It's a painful and slow story that sometimes just takes up all the space in my head and just brings my mood down. 

I know I seem to be very chirpy and all, I do try my best for you guys. I know i'm not the only one going through things like these, so the most I could do is to hold your hand, smile, and tell you you're not in this alone. 

I guess it's safe to say for the months that I haven't been active and on, I've been deeply depressed. I've felt both extremes, the highs and the lows..and sometimes it was just too much for me to handle. 

For those of you who didn't know, I'm a very family-oriented person, so problems concerning the people I love impacts me big time. I have a lot of people depending on me emotionally, which makes me feel loved and honored, but there are times that it's too much. 

Sigh. However..

I WILL NOT DISCONTINUE REINCARNATION. You guys do NOT deserve to be treated that way, and so does our bean Alexander Smith. 

A new chapter will be coming soon. I hope you understand the delay. :(

I've been going through shit and have been really depressed for months. But I remembered how wonderful you guys always were, you guys somehow inspire me to get back up, I can't explain either so don't ask. 

Last night i've received a message, from a dear reader talking about my stories H&H, Mafia, and Reincarnation. It made me smile, and it reminded me that you guys are also my responsibility. 

I was reminded of how you've always said that my stories make you happy, that my works distract you form your problems, that somehow I was able to make you smile. 

I was reminded that you guys weren't just my readers, you ARE my friends and my responsibility. 

And if you are going through a tough time like I am, I would be honored to hold your hand, lend an ear, and spreading my arms wide open for you. 

I love you very much. 

Thank you for staying.

Sincerely, Johanna. 

P.S. New Chapter coming in a few days :) or maybe tonight or tomorrow depending on what timezone you're in haha. 

P.P.S. If you're in a constant battle of depression or feeling alone, read this:

https://annethelazy.com/2016/03/29/when-you-feel-alone/

and hopefully you found it worth reading, it helped me. 

OKAY I LOVE YOU. 

SMILE YOU LIL PEANUT.