Promise? • phan

Phil

Seems like the past few months have gone by in a blink of an eye. Pj and I are celebrating our 3 month anniversary, and tomorrow Dan is coming back to school.

I have hope that pj will stick up for me since he is my boyfriend but he was dans friend first. I don't want to seem so insecure but I am worried that pj may leave me if Dan doesn't like us together.
And I know for a fact that Dan will not like us together because pj was his first; and I guess that's true.

Should I break up with him? Should I stay? If I break up with him, Dan may not bully me anymore. If I stay, pj may stick up for me and make sure Dan doesn't hurt me. But what if he's not around and it's just me and Dan, then I know he will get to me and it'll be bad.

I decided to text pj about what he has planned tonight.
(Phil ; pj)

Hey pj :) what's the plans for today?

Hey philly, and today? Oh I made plans with Chris to have a bros days out. Him and I haven't seen much of each other since Dan left and since he's coming back tomorrow I decided to spend today with chris. I hope you don't mind xx

Oh. Okay, no it's okay I was curious. Have fun with Chris see ya tomorrow :))

Wow he actually forgot. Or maybe he has something planned? But he doesn't seem like the type to do that. Seems like everything was going so well now pj forgot our anniversary and Dan is coming back tomorrow.

I wish Dan could just stay away and pay for what he did to me!
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I arrive at the cemetery and its 11:48 pm currently. I haven't heard from pj ever since this morning and Dan will be back tomorrow and I needed to vent.

I needed to vent to my best friend that I lost due to being bullied. He was bullied so bad by a kid 2 1/2 yrs older than him that he decided that killing himself would be so much better than walking this earth and deal with the bully everyday.

I wish I could talk to him, but instead I leave notes.

I take a seat in front of his grave that read "Gerard Way". I took out my notebook and started to write to Gerard.

Hi Gerard. I hope you are having a good time in heaven. At first I was thinking , "how do I know you aren't in hell?" But you are a angel bean and couldn't hurt a living soul except for yourself. No, I still don't forgive you for what you've done. I know it was hard getting bullied everyday, I get that now but it's physical for me and it's so hard to deal with. The of course his best friend ends up liking me right when he gets sent away. I'm probably a victim in some sick and twisted game they have but I fell for it. I wish I had the guts to join you wherever you are. It's probably way better there. I love you Gerard and I promise to visit you soon.

As I finished writing him, I folded up the note and placed it on top of all the others I've left; the others worn out and washed away pretty much. I stood up from where I sat in front of the grave, it being around 1am by now, I dusted myself off and looked at his gravestone one last time for the night, and that's when I heard a voice that I didn't miss at all.

"Hi Phil. You probably remember me, if not , it's me Dan. And if you tell anyone what I'm about to say, then life won't be easy."

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IM SO SORRY FOR THE HELLA LATE UPDATE I DIDNT REALIZE. IF THIS EVER HAPPENS AGAIN DM ME AND GO OFF.

Anyways it's a filler to set up what's happening next.

QOTD: do you have a two faced friend that stabbed you in the back but acted innocent?

AOTD: yep. I met them on Wattpad, through this book actually.

AGAIN IM SO SORRY.