Promise? • phan

Dan

i was on cloud nine all night.

Philip michael lester was the perfect man and tonight i finally figured that out for sure. Even if he doesnt have a vioce to say i love you back, doesnt change any feelings i have towards him. His smile lights up the room. I remember perfectly when i saw him smile when i picked him up from his house.

i was on my phone texting my friend chris as i awaited phil, and when i heard the door open, i look up and see the most beautiful man i have ever laid eyes on. as he walked towards me i was captivated by his beauty and time seemed to go slow motion. I couldnt hear anything aroound me. I couldnt hear the nearby bcars passing or the wind, i couldnt hear phils parents or my phone buzzing, nothing.

It was defintely a night ill never forget.

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After i dropped phil off at home i was still smiling, already planning out our next date, maybe the movies? i could take him to see the conjuring 2. but he would get scared and hate me, but... he could get scared and cuddle me during it. i could comfort him and hold him in my arms, whisper sweet nothings and kiss the top of his head. Or i could take him out of town and a weekend, book a room and spend alone time with him without parents or friends. but he may get freaked out since its only the second date.

I didnt realize that i was thinking about it so much, as i swerved off the road and into a ditch. "are you fucking serious?!" i yelled at myself, oh well. no one will care anyways. I back up my car and after 15 minutes of trying, my car finally backed out of the ditch and i continued my way to Chris' house. Since my mom hates me. Honestly if it was worse i would have cared, only because i could not leave phil; i couldnt handle seeing phil cry, whether im alive or dead. Phil means so much to me and I'm going to prove it.

As I arrived at Chris' house he runs out to greet me . "Dan!" He pulls me into a hug. I Yelp slightly, not expecting him to freak like that just by me showing up a bit later than I said. "Where have you been? Are you okay? Tell me everything that's happened!" He spoke fast and eager. He leads me through his house into his guest room that he's prepared for me, and he sat on the bed waiting for me to talk, which I did.

I settle in, and decided to just tell him. "Well obviously I found out I do in fact have very strong feelings for Phil that I tried hiding by uh- bullying. Well now I'm hoping he looks past that as I'm trying to show my love him in the best ways possible. So tonight I took him out to eat and talked kinda about what he likes. He was probably freaked out by my constant staring but I couldn't help it. He is so gorgeous and perfect; how could he be real? Anyways, I dropped him off at home then on my way back I was daydreaming about our next date and swerved off the road and into a ditch, thankfully me and my car are okay, I was able to back out and drive back here. Oh and my mother had made no attempt to contact me so yeah, I'll never see me sister again." I looked down at my lap fiddling with my sleeves.

"Dan well you're a fucktard for the Phil thing but I know you are a romantic and I'm sure you'll win his heart, I can tell he likes you. And for your car , just get it looked at to make sure there are no leaks that could start a fire and blow you up, and maybe someday your mother will come around and at least let you see Tilly. I'm sure it's hurting your mum to see Tilly so sad." Chris offers a soft smile. I mumble a thank you and pull him into a hug.

"Now, go shower , text your lover and sleep. You look exhausted." Chris was right, I was very tired. He left the room, locking it behind him because I like my privacy. I strip out of my clothes and walk towards the shower. I turn it on the warmest setting without it being too hot. I look in the mirror at my body. Before I saw myself as flawless. Beautiful. Just perfect. But now, I see a monster. Some sick monster that caused pain to the real flawless man named Phil. I look away in disgust. Phil doesn't deserve me but somehow he looks past what I did, even though he shouldn't. He should see me and run away, not cling onto me and love me. But I'm thankful he is starting to trust me, I love him so much.

After my long steamy shower, I settle with just wearing my pikachu boxers to bed. I got under my covers and sent Phil a goodnight text. "
To: Philip 😍❤️
Goodnight my love"

Not even a message after he replied,
From: Philip😍❤️
Could you actually Skype for a minute?"

I replied with a 'of course' and quickly grabbed my laptop setting it up at the end of my bed so he could see my face clearly. I had hobbit hair but I was too lazy to straighten it. I was going to bed right afterwards anyways.

Video call from 'Phil Lester'
I smile and quickly press accept. I soon see phils beautiful face pop up on my screen. "Hello my love" I speak in a soft tone , not wanting to wake anyone up. He smiled and blushes, looking away from the camera. "Philly? Why are you blushing?" He looks back up to the screen and points to my lower region.

I look at myself through the camera on Skype and see that my boxers were on full view while I was sitting criss cross. I blush fiercely and quickly cover myself up. "I'm so sorry! I didn't realize- I was just-" I was cut off by my phone buzzing.

"From: Philip 😍❤️
Dan it's fine! Stop freaking lolzor"

I look up at him. "Lolzor? Really Phil?" I laugh and he nods his head slightly. God damn he was adorable.

"From: Philip😍❤️
Don't worry I didn't get turned on...
That much ;)))"

"Phil!" I blush at him and he silently laughs, which was the most adorable thing ever.

"I- I think we should go to bed." I nervously laugh, and he smiles, nodding his head in agreement.

"Goodnight my love." I whisper to him.

"From Philip😍❤️: goodnight Dan xx"

I kiss my hand and put it up to the screen, Phil mocks my actions. With that we got off Skype and went to bed, thinking about each other and what the future holds for us as a couple.

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SORRY I DIDNT REALIZE I HAVENT UPDATED THIS BOOK IN SO LONG!!!!

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