Lost It All

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Jay's POV

Well after that little settlement we talk for a little and I got to know everyone a little bit better and I actually feel safe with them

'Hey what time is it' I wonder in my head "it's 11:59" CC says checking his phone 'I must have said that out loud.....again' "yeah you did...again" "holy sh..." "watch that language young one" Andy says I put my hands up in surrender

Everyone falls silent and people start starring at me "didn't your mom every teach you not to stare at other people" I say to them Amy and Chris chuckle and nodded in agreement "Sorry" they say at the same time

"Wait don't girls like to have the spot light like all the time" Ashley ask "well that's where your wrong I don't like to be in the spot light it adds another thing to my insecurity list" I replied they looked stunned when I said that

"Wait your insecure about yourself haha yeah right your only 5" Jake says which hurt a little but nothing I can't handle
"Jakes why wou-" Andy says before I cut him off "NO! so Pitts you tell me when you were little no one ever made fun off you" I say clear madness dripping from my words "yeah because of your last name Pitts no one ever made fun of you for that and if you say no that's bullshit" I say clenching my hand into a ball everyone looked shocked

"Jay can you tell us some of your insecurities please?" CC asked I nodded

"I don't wear dresses,skirts, shorts, because it's to girlie I'll wear a short sleeve every now and then um yeah all people starring at me oh I do not and I repeat DO NOT wear bathing suits nor bikinis when going swimming I wear shorts and a shirt that's the only time I wear shorts and I don't go swimming that much" I say stopping before I say something I regret

"So you wear pants and long sleeve and open and close toe shoes correct?" Amy ask I thought about what she just said

"Oh I also don't wear open toed shoes" I said added smiling

"So your a boy right" Jinxx asked smirking I took a deep breath in out "No I'm a girl just different from other girls" I said so it was clear I was trying to keep my cool

"Oh so your boy that looks like a girl" Jake said with a smirked face I couldn't take anymore why do they hate me so much

"Ok I'd really like to answer your questions but I'm going to call it a night so goodnight" I said and ran to the room with my suitcase in it and got changed into my hello kitty pajamas and laid in bed but then I remembered something and ran to my suitcase and got out my ipod that I got when I stole some of Sarah's money out of her purse I grabbed my headphones that I got also with the ipod and plugged it in and ran and laid down under the covers I pressed play on lost it all
and started singing a long

I rule the world

With these hands I shook

the heavens to the ground

Laid the gods to rest

I held the key to the kingdom lions guarding castle walls

Held the king of death

Then I lost it all dead and broken my

Backs against the wall cut me open

I'm....just trying breath just trying to figure it's out

Because I built these walls to watch them crumble them down I said

Then I lost it all but who can save me now

I stood above another war another jewel upon the crown

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