Between You And Me

One

Graduation Party

Bea's POV

They say it's easy to move-on but hard to forget. In my case, they are both mahirap. How can you even forget the person that made you happy and made you feel important even just for a short period of time?

For 2 years, I've never forgotten her.

I always ask myself, how is she na ba? Did she forget me na?

Maybe she has already forgotten me. I really don't mean that much to her. Or maybe I just mean nothing.

All of it were just memories of the past.

Memories na walang kwenta at dapat hindi na balikan.

All of my thoughts were interrupted when I felt a tap on my shoulders.

"Lalim ng iniisip natin ah." Kuya Loel approached.

Kuya Loel has been my crying-shoulder for the past two years.

He's the only person who knows about Jhoana.

I didn't said anything and just stared at him.

"Why are you here outside, Isabel? And lit naman ng party mo sa loob."

It's my graduation party. I did not want a party. Or rather, I didn't want anything special naman from my parents. I thought na there's much more things that we should pay attention to, diba? We could've had just a simple BBQ party with friends and family or we could've had visited the orphanage para naman mapasaya namin ang mga bata na walang mga magulang.

They wanted to celebrate kasi raw na survive ko ang highschool ko. Eh wala na man rin akong magagawa diba? What parents say, you follow. And if you don't, they will make you follow parin.

"Ewan. I just wanted fresh air. Ang ingay sa loob." I told him.

He maybe took my answer as a yes naman kasi nag nod lang siya.

We're both staring at the city lights from the balcony. I wonder what she's doing right now.

Is she staring at the same sky as I do right now?

"Siya parin?" The question brought me back to reality. 

"Always, kuya. Always."

It feels like my identity has always been about her.

But how?

Ang dali lang namin nagkakilala. Parang wala lang isang taon. Bakit naman ako ma a-attach?

Kahit ako hindi ko rin alam.

How can you fall inlove with just plain texts? And without really actually knowing the person personally?

I had never seen or heard her voice. I don't even know her name pa nga eh!

Ang pathetic ko. Siguro ang iba mag iisip lang na baka infatuation lang yun?

Sana nga infatuation lang dahil kung infatuation lang, I'm not gonna be affected as this.

Wala epek sana.

"If meant to be nga talaga kayo, kayo talaga. Maghahanap at maghahanap ng paraan si Destiny para magkikita kayo ulit."

"Ew. You watch the tv too much, big bro." I joked.

He pat my head at ginulo niya buhok ko.

"Hey! Ilang oras ko inayos buhok ko tapos sisirain mo lang?"

Seryoso. You don't wanna mess with me and my hair. Pun intended.

"Sus buhok lang yan eh. Parang naman kinalbuhan kita. OA mo." sabi niya naman.

I glared at him.

"Una na ako sa loob. Sunod ka na rin, I heard Dad's got a present for you. A big one." he winked.

Di ko alam kung anong sinasabi nito but I just nod.

And with that, tumalikod at umalis na siya.

Tumingin ulit ako sa city.

I hope so, kuya. I hope you're right.