One more night [jjk]

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I ended up on the carpet floor of the silent library. I attempted to read but it was as if every word that my eyes passed by were his laced with his name.

"Please don't tell me you're reading the dictionary Hee Young, i know you love to read but..." the patient voice of the librarian says

Looking up i am faced with her back as she puts away some books

"Oh...I didnt even notice oh my gosh aha" i say feeling ridiculous

"Got something on your mind?" She mumbles

"Uh... I mean i guess. It's just, this stupid boy and it seems as if everything that could possibly go wrong at the moment is exactly what's happening right now and... I don't know what to do." I say knowing that I could trust her with any problems I had

"Ahhh.... young love" she says letting out a soft chuckle as she takes a seat next to me

"I know... my life is a kdrama. Song Joong ki is that you?!" I say making her laugh

"I was in the same position as you when I was around your age. I was in a way addicted to this guy, almost as if he was alcohol. I drank him up everyday. He was in my veins and blood stream, he just made me so happy. The thing was, no one ever liked us together. They believed he was a bad influence and that I don't belong with people like him." She said as if she was reminiscing of a long lost beautiful face

"So... what did you do?" I can't help but ask

"It's funny, because at the moment I just believed everyone around me didn't understand how we were and how we felt. But I guess I should have trusted them sooner...." she slowly trails off

Resting my head on her shoulder I sigh, already aware of what happens next.

"I went sober."

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-Namjoon-

"Oh by the way, I saw Hee Young earlier when I went out to get coffee" i tell Jungkook as we stretch before practice

"You should invite her over sometime. We could play some games or something, I think it would be fu-" i start but am suddenly interrupted by V's hand covering my mouth and pulling me out of the practice room.

"Yah pabo, can you not tell Jungkook and Hee Young are fighting? Look at kookie" V says as soon as he shuts the door behind us

"Oh... already? Aish Kookie, doesn't even tell me when these kind of things happen... I saw Hee Young not when i went to go get coffee and she seemed fine though" I say taking a peek at Jungkook in the room alone. Now that V pointed it out to me he did seem as if he had something bothering him.

"Of course she would, it was Jungkook's fault!" V says loudly, obviously pissed at the baby's choices

"Okay okay Shh, ill just go in there and apologize than" i say about to walk back in

"Wait no! Just pretend like nothing happened, he's sensitive at the moment" V says blocking me from the door

"A-are you sure? Maybe he wants to talk about it" I say scratching the back of my neck

"Hyung, he just needs some time to think things through by himself. Sometimes us interfering with his opinion and decisions, just mess everything up even more than it needs to be"
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-Hee Young-

Maybe i just needed one more night. One more day to contemplate if this was all worth it in the end. My hands are shaking... my mind is a mess at this point. Unsure if it's worth walking through hell to reach heaven.

I've decided to give my heart another day with Jungkook. Spend the day as if everything in the past, is the past.

Than I'll make my decision of what to do next

Pulling out my phone from underneath my pillow i decided to call him despite it being 3am

Hearing my phone ring i feel stupid.

He's probably sleeping...

"Hey you reached the golden maknae's mailbox, please leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can" his soothingly excited voice mail says

Laying in my bed for a solid 30 seconds of silence i wait to talk

-Jungkook-

"Hey....uhm it's me. Hee Young, i-i don't kno- can we just... why is this so hard for me aha... Uhm i know we aren't necessarily on best terms at the moment, but please don't do anything stupid Jungkook.. you know i care about you a-and this is all just hard for me to digest. But please, stay safe and uh call me back when you can okay..." Her voice says calmly

Waiting for my phone to say that she ended the message, I realize that it's still ongoing

"I hope you're not blaming everything on yourself, because we both know that both of us can take the blame for today and everything really. I just hope you're okay haha" she says letting out a soft sob saying the last line

"Well anyways this was hella long, but just call me back when you can." and with that she ended the message.

Unable to control my feelings I screamed into my pillow as i felt the tears start to form in the corners of my eyes.

Replaying her message I entangle my hands in my hair. This is exactly what I was scared of happening. Falling so deep into this crazy shit called love; unaware if I'm able to fix all of my mistakes along the way.