WHY WE BROKE UP | WROETOSHAW ✔️

THE FIRST LETTER

THE FIRST LETTER

harry,

this is the first letter of many and i feel like I should apologise in advance for the number of letters you'll be receiving from me this year. i hope this helps you as much as it's going to help me. my mum said that this should help; i trust her. you remember my mum? i think she misses you too, you know? i honestly think that she thought i would marry you, have kids with you and die with you.

sometimes i think she still hopes we'll work things out and get back together, but she never says anything. she doesn't want to upset me.

anyway, onto the first reason why:

1. i got paranoid

i got paranoid and started accusing you of cheating on me, which must have gotten to you because it ended up coming true, but i feel as if my paranoia and accusations drove you to it. maybe i made you that angry that you went out one night intentionally to do it. i'm sorry if i did that to you.  

every time you'd been out with friends and i wasn't there i began to worry you were with other girls. i would wind myself up and up like a clockwork mouse and let myself go when you came home.

oh, we must have had thousands of arguments in which you were drunk and i was near hysterical. we'd shout and scream at each other until our throats burned raw. one night i shouted so loud that the neighbour had to come over to check if we were ok. you told him you were sorry for the noise and that it would be quiet now.

on that occasion, we did settle down. but i slept on the opposite side of the bed to you and refused to talk to you the next morning. i didn't speak to you again until you snapped at me asking why i was ignoring you still.

i was honest with you, told you that i thought you'd cheated on me. you'd looked at me with pain in your eyes and promised me that you hadn't. you took my hands in yours and kissed my forehead softly like you always did, telling me that you would never cheat on me.

looking back on it now, i was in the wrong every single time, but you were always the one to apologise first and for that i love you, harry, and i regret not trusting you everyday.

yours always,
love, marnie x

i decided to post this now because I've almost finished writing it. it's a short story so there's only going to be like ten chapters minimum. i hope you all enjoy it <3