cold | jjk

eleven

jungkook: remember the first time you told me you loved me?
seen 4:22am

yes, i do. and i'll never forget it.

dayeon turned off the "seen" setting on her phone and watched as his messages flooded her inbox.

jungkook: it was after our first fight in the first year of our relationship
unseen

tears formed in dayeon's eyes but she laughed it off, remember how stupid the fight was.

jungkook: even though it happened three years ago i still regret every mean thing i said to you
unseen

i regret acting so immaturely as well, kookie.

sorry.

jungkook: what kind of a boyfriend tells his girlfriend to leave him alone because she's draining all his energy?
unseen

it seemed as though not much has changed from that point on.

jungkook: i remember the look on your face after i said that
jungkook: you were scared
jungkook: scared.
jungkook: i regretted ever making you scared of me
jungkook: i'm sorry
unseen

i wasn't scared of you. i was scared of losing you.

jungkook: i should've been a man and apologized first
jungkook: i thought you hated me so i was scared to confront you first
jungkook: can you believe it?
jungkook: i was scared. of you.
unseen

i understand why, she thought. i was a mess.

jungkook: i was scared you would tell me you hated me
jungkook: i was scared you would break up with me
jungkook: i was scared of my world falling apart
unseen

i've said it time and time again-- i will never hate you. even if i die.

jungkook: but when you showed up at my apartment door with a box of pizza and hugged me
jungkook: i knew that i was never ever going to make the mistake of doubting you ever again
jungkook: i promised myself never to do anything stupid that could make you leave me
jungkook: i mean, what guy is lucky enough to have a girlfriend deliver him a pizza shaped in a heart after a fight?
unseen

i asked namjoon how to apologize to you. it wasn't all me like how you thought the story played out.

i lied to you.

jungkook: i don't remember what we fought about
jungkook: but i remember you were crying and apologizing for everything you did
jungkook: then you looked me in the eyes and told me those three words i'll probably never hear again
unseen

i...

jungkook: "i

love...

jungkook: love

you...

jungkook: you"
unseen

jungkook: but now i'm living in my worst nightmare
unseen

me too, kookie.

jungkook: everything i was scared of came true
seen 4:31am

i'm living my normal life.

that in itself is absolutely terrifying.