"Please.. P-Pierre...lumayo ka sakin. I will kill you."
I'm having these visions again.
The night was dark and cold. Ramdam ko ang lamig na pumapasok sa loob ng katawan ko habang nakaluhod sa matigas na semento ng parking lot na yon.
"Inutos niya sakin.... Papatayin kita.
This is where Rafaella meet her end. The night she died. I can feel it.
Pero naguguluhan ako. Why would I kill him? Sino ang nag-utos.
I felt the prince's embrace. His warmth. Pero sa kabila noon, nakakaramdam parin ako ng matinding takot.
I can smell his blood. May malalim na sugat siya sa pisngi at dibdib. I did that to him.
"I know, but I won't let you go...Mahal na mahal kita. Kahit anong mangyari, mahal na mahal kita, Elle."
Elle...
I remember now, this was the same scene on Blade's memory.
Rafaella...Elle...She was his Elle.
It was all in front of me and I didn't even realized it. Iisa lang sila. Iisa lang babaeng sinasabi nilang minahal nito noon.
I felt my hand on a bloody dagger. It was pure silver. The hilt was same as Blade's sword. It has Soliel symbol. Ito ang hawak ko kaya siya nasugatan.
It moved. Slowly. Nanginginig ang kamay ko. Parang may string na kusang nagpapagalaw dito, hindi ko mapigilan.
This how my psych work, I knew it. It must be. Someone must have used it on Rafaella before this. May isa pa palang may kaparehas ng pysch ko.
Kill him little one...
That white haired demon. I can hear him at the back of my head. He was the one who ordered it. Hindi pa pala siya kuntento sa lahat ng pagpapahirap niya sa akin.
This is inevitable. Wala na akong magagawa pa kung katulad ng kakayahan ko ang utos niya.
"Pierre..."
No. He can't die. I won't do it. I can't.
I tried hard to took control of myself. I pushed him away using the last ounce of my strength. I felt the dagger's blade entered my body instead. On my chest. Into my heart.
All I can feel was pain. Unbearable pain. And then calmness.
"I'm sorry..." My voice is weak. I can see the darkness started to envelope the surroundings. Kinakain na lahat ng kadiliman at wala na ako halos makita.
Kaming dalawa nalang. Ang tanging nararamdaman ko nalang ay ang yakap niya.
"No. Please don't say that. You'll live... Magkakasama pa tayo hindi ba? Hindi mo ako iiwan diba? You promised, Elle. You promised me. Hold on."
I felt the dagger still lodged on my chest. Wala nang pag-asa pa.
If ever I lived after this, uulitin ko uli ang pagtatangka ko sa buhay niya. This is how that psych works, walang makakapigil noon
I choosed to die instead.
I took the dagger out and let the darkness consume me. This is the end.
"W-wait for me, my prince...find me.."
I gasped for air as I opened my eyes.
Wala na ako sa kwartong tinulugan ko kanina. It's still dark but I can see the thin rays of light from the window.
The dawn is breaking. Tumigil na rin ang malakas na ulan.
Nasa kama ako, mag-isa lang. Tumingin ako sa paligid. I remember this as the big empty room that Mama wont allow anyone in. She kept it clean and well maintained when we're still using this place as a vacation house. It was reserved for someone, she always say. Medyo naiintindihan ko na kung bakit.
Hindi ko matandaan kung paano ako napunta dito. I felt the thin camping mattress on my back, may nakakumot na rin sakin. Nakasuot na sakin ang isang maluwag na T shirt.
It must me Blade's. I can smell his scent from it. I sighed. Where is he?
I moved but the pain between my legs made it really uncomfortable. My knees wobbled when I tried to stand. I winced.
I know this was the aftermath of my first. I heard from the stories na ganoon daw talaga ang pakiramdam.
I did it. We did it.
My hand moved on my neck to feel the impression that was left by Blade's bite. It was there. He bit me. He marked me. I am his. He was mine.
His taste still lingered on my mouth. His blood tasted sweeter and thicker than those of human blood. Finer than those ordinary vampires.
Why didn't I noticed it before? How did he kept it from everyone else?
Nakadinig ako ng malungkot na tugtog ng piano. He was playing again. This time, kompleto na sa nota at maayos na ang tono.
Sinubukan kong tumayo uli. Dahan-dahan akong naglakad papalabas ng kwartong iyon. Kailangan ko siyang puntahan, kailangan ko siyang makausap.
I found him on that piano room again. Alam kong napansin na din niya akong pumasok doon pero tuloy parin siya sa pagtugtog nang malungkot at marahan.
"Mon amour..." He spoke.
"Blade..." Marahan ko namang sambit. Lumapit ako sa kanya at tumayo sa gilid ng piano. Tumigil na siya sa pagtipa at napayuko. Wala siyang suot na pangtaas. Kitang-kita ko sa balikat niya ang markang iniwan ng kagat ko.
"F-Forgive me." He said. Ramdam ko ang lungkot sa likod ng mga salitang yon.
"We...I shouldn't have done it."
Parang may kung anong bagay ang dumagan sa dibdib ko. Hindi ako makahinga.
Nagsisisi siya sa nangyari sa amin. I know, naiintindihan ko. Pero masakit parin na marinig sa kanya iyon.
Naiintindihan ko na kung bakit siya umiiwas sa akin noon. Kung bakit siya tumitigil nalang ng basta. Nakaramdam ako ang panliliit at pagkahiya sa mga inasal ko.
He's scared too. I can feel it. We are mated now. Nararamdaman ko ang nararamandam niya dahil sa bond na meron kami.
Ano na nga bang mangyayari sa amin pagkatapos nito? I don't even know how to face Mama after this.
"T-Tell me, what's going on? Why did you kept this from me?" tanong ko.
Huminga siya nang malalim pero hindi sumagot. Dahan-dahan siyang nag-angat ng mukha at tumingin sa akin. I can clearly see his golden colored eyes. He can't deny his bloodline, it was evident now.
He was a Soliel. A full blooded one.
"Mon amour," he said. Tumayo na siya at lumapit. He towered over me. Marahan kong inangat ang isang kamay para haplusin ang pilat sa pisngi niya. Pababa iyon sa dibdib. Naiwang tanda ng gabing iyon.
It was really him.
Pierre.
"I waited. Just like you wanted me to do," I felt his hand caressed my cheek.
"I found you, Elle."
