Broken | Wattys 2016

Worlds That Will Never Align

A world of darkness

A world of light

A world of water

A world of roaring flames

Engulfing everything

As it disintegrates into ash

A world of joy

A world of pain

My world will never

Be the same

As all of my friends

Are worlds apart

I am alone

I am in pain

As the monsters in my head

Tear apart my brain

How can it be so dark

When I feel I've been set aflame

How can I be empty

When all I feel is pain

I envision my friends

Happy

Skipping side by side

As I am held back by dark chains

And I am left behind

Can they feel my lack of presence

Or do they even care

I take on all the pain around me

So others don't have to see

The madness inside of themselves

Instead it's all in me

The weight of all these burdens

Is just too much to bear

I feel myself falling

Wondering when it will end

This dark abyss seems endless

But there has to be an end

A firm foundation to stand on

As I build myself up again

I find myself envisioning

A world clean and pristine

I shine brightly

I feel free

How can this be real

I'll never be able to see

If I can't heal others sorrows

How can I ever heal me

As these thoughts fly through my mind

This beautiful world crumbles

This world of pure perfection

Now flattened by the storms

Caused by the monsters in my head

That appear everywhere I go

From the most terrifying nightmare

To the happiest of dreams

They always come

And obliterate everything

Nothing I've found can withstand the force

These violent beasts can bring

Even after all this pain

I won't contemplate my death

For if there are some who truly care

Their hearts be torn in twain

All for the sake of my relief

How would I be able to rest in peace

Knowing how much pain

I'd caused in the world

All because I couldn't handle

The voices in my head