Savior||Carl Grimes

16. Voice+

Al
I allow myself to cry as I drive back to camp, as soon as I pull up to the gates that are...closed, I wipe my tears away.
I sniff and park my car before opening the gates and allowing myself in.
People aren't out walking like they used to be. I walk to my home and open the door.
"Dad?" I ask through the house.
"Decided to come back?"
I look at the top of the stairs and see my dad.
I nod.
"Damn...you look like shit!" He says.
I look down, and bite my bloody lip.
"Where is that one eyed boy? I would love to see him!" He says.
"He's gone." I say, feeling tears well up in my eyes.
"Ah, there's my little serial killer! Did you finally end him Al?" My dad says, pulling me into his side.
I push myself away and go up the stairs.
I want Carl back.
But he doesn't give a shit about me.
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Carl
Did I lead her on to strongly?
Maybe I took her to the pond too many times.
Enid is smiling like a maniac.
She'll look at me with her green eyes that used to stun me.
But no they don't amount to the colorful eyes of Al.
I shake my head to myself and look down.
My souls is divided.
My heart wants to go home.
But I don't know where home is anymore.
"Carl?" Enid says.
"Yeah?"
"Who was that girl?"
"She said who she is." I say, not looking at Enid.
The car swerved a little, as it has been the whole time.
I don't feel safe with Enid like used to.
Al was such a badass.
I knew if we got ourselves into trouble, she'd know how to handle it.
Enid would expect me to figure it out.
"Carl." Enid says loudly.
"Huh?"
"You're zoning out again."
"Oh sorry."
"What's wrong?" Enid asks me, resting her hand on my knee.
I look at it and swallow hard.
"I want to get out." I say, pulling on the door handle.
Enid slams on the brake and the car starts to spin in circles.
She screams and lets go of the wheel.
I grab it and pull it toward the way we're spinning...like Al taught me.
The car stops within a few seconds.
"Why'd you open your door?" Enid yells.
I get out of the car and begin to walk where she found me, at least ten miles ago.
I didn't realize how far we'd come.
"Where are you going?" Enid screams from behind me.
I keep walking.
"Home." I say to myself.
Al is where I feel at home.
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Al
I don't know what to do.
My muscle memory is telling me to go to Carl in Bed Stuy.
Maybe I should.
Maybe he came back and he's there.
I know he didn't.
I sigh and lay on my bed.
I look to my left and see the dress I wore to that stupid dance we went to.
I laugh a little and wipe my eyes.
Memories of him are everywhere.
I didn't understand attachment before.
I do now.
It's too late though.
"Al?" I hear a voice say.
I sat up quickly and looked around.
Nothing.
I'm hearing things again. Carl kept the monsters in head away.
He's gone now.
He's just another voice in my head.
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Hey everyone. Hope you had a good Christmas.
Sorry for the last "chapter." Not really a chapter it was just me freaking out actually, it didn't have anything to do with the story.
Everything is okay.
Well not okay but it will be eventually.
Thanks for reading!