18 Letters to You [Completed]

Letter 13

Rory,

I know I will regret not keeping her. I know I will regret not joining you and Perry in the band. I know all of this but I'm still so scared.

I'm scared that I made the wrong choice in leaving Caleb. I'm scared that I will ruin our baby's life just by not being enough.

I am so scared.

But I'm terrified of losing you.

We'll figure it all out, right?

We'll have this baby, find a house, figure out how to go in tour with an infant?

Rory, we were the kids stealing beer from the store on the corner at 16 years old. We were getting drunk and passing out just to do it all over again only a few months ago. How can we be talking about having a baby now?

Are we actually ready for this? Can we put out past and all of this crap we went through behind us and really start over?

I don't want to regret giving her up. But I don't want to be selfish in our choice either.

I'm sorry for making everything more difficult.

I love you.

-Stella