I was walking to my office when I passes Jordan's I heard moaning. I ran passed it. I did not want to hear that I ever want to hear that he does not need to rub it in my face that he as such a great boyfriend. Its been rough for the last couple of months people keep hating on me for my weight. Then I find out the guy I fell in love with will never love me why would anyone with my weight. This is wonderful right just my luck. I just stare at my computer not feeling like uploading. As of right now I am losing everyone. James got pissed with me he wont talk to me. Sly will barley taking to me because he is trying to talk to James see what I dis he does not want him mad at him. I dont even know why we are fighting I don't know what I did. The only person who will talk to me is Dan but we aren't that close I get up walk back to the front door.
"Seamus where you going?" I heard Dan ask. I look at him and smile making sure I dont look like I am pissed or anything.
"Not feeling so good I need some sleep." I say. He smiles back at me.
"Alright feel better." I open the door and walk to my car. I have no idea what I am doing should I do it or not. I soon end up in my house I drag myself to my room. I open my draw to see my gun I had brought awhile ago when I first started thinking about this. I put some bullets in it. First I grab my phone might as well say bye to my best friend right I mean he used to be. I slowly push the numbers I mesmerized it and never forgot it. it rang and he picked up.
"Ready to say sorry?"He asked
"Actually I am saying good bye" I said
"What do you mean goodbye Seamus? This is not funny because you are scarring me." He said I heard shuffling.
"What's the point James I dont want to go on anymore no likes me no one love me. I just wanted to say I love you and dont miss me to much." I said as I ended the call. I started balling my eyes out my head shaking. I was scared were do I go after this. Why should I care I want this right so stop being a baby put the gun to your head and pull the trigger. I put the gun to my head thinking back to James and the guys and how much they mean to me. I grabbed a paper writing something down.
Hey guys its me if you are reading this most likely I am gone. Dont worry I will be a little more happy. I wont have to think about not having a relationship people rubbing it in my face. I wont have to worry about my weight I wont have to worry about my best friend hating me. Dont miss me to much. Bye.
I sot back down put the gun to my head about to shot when my door opens.
Bang
A/N: Hey guys this is a thing I wrote sorry if it sad just been having a pretty bad week and this came to me. But you dont know what happened if he missed or anything if you want I can write another part but I don't know.
