Different // Narry

20

HES

"And in that time i cant help but to laugh" I could hear Dave soft laughs as he hold my love handle tighter.

It feels not right being hold by him

It feels so wrong when he kissed me, when he hold me, when he try to act cute. I dont ever even feel any sparkel in my belly, not even once when we kiss. Nothing, just emptiness when he kiss me.

I force myself to like him, but i cant.

I just cant.

Niall is all i want. Niall is the one who can make my stomach fill with butterfly without even touching me. He could even just stand right infront of me and make my belly explode from all the butterly.

"Hazza? Are you okay?" Dave voice ring in my ears like a bell making my head turn towards him.

He raised his eyebrows looking suspicious "Are you sick?" He ask as he stop moving his legs and turn all his attention towards me. "Hey haz, if you sick, we can go home. After all its already 9:00 PM" Jack smile sweetly.

This is why i cant break up with him.

He's too sweet.

"Yeah, thanks for understanding, Dave" I stretch out a thin smile towards him. He pat my head "Anytime, babe" He suddenly grab my hand and started to walk towards the parking lot.

As soon as we got there, he pull the car door for me and closed it again gently. I frown my eyebrows slightly. I secretly wish he turn into a douche sometimes so he could dump me and i finally could confess my love towards Niall.

But neither happens.

Dave pull the driver door and as soon as he sits, he started the engine and turn on the radio. He drove away from the mall and i face towards the window car didn't have any intention to talk to Jack.

Yes- I know i'm bad.

But, i dont feel like talking to anyone right now. My feelings is being an asshole. I feel numb suddenly. I feel like i need a hug. I feel like i need someone to told me wich one should i choose.

But the fact is, no one is here to help me.

Its me, myself and i.

I need to solve this annoying feelings problem all by myself.

I turn my head towards Dave and as soon as my eyes laid on his features. I cant help but to hate myself even more.

How can i not love someone as amazing as him?

Why?

I really want to tell him everything to be honest, but i just cant bring myself to tell him the truth. Its not the right time to tell him about me loving Niall from afar.

And i'm trying to move on, but right now, i just cant. My inner self still held Niall back as if it doesn't want to let him go.

But i need to, sooner or later.

"Harry?" He gaze towards me and raise his eyebrows as if he's questioning my stare towards him.

"Yeah?" I snap out from my thought and adjust my position. "Are you okay? You've been staring at me for awhile now, what happen babe?" He break our gaze and turn all his attention towards the road.