Talking to the Moon ✔

- Chapter: Thirty -

I did not go back to my room. I decided to stay in his visiting chambers. His reaction did not make sense to me; but why was I trying to make sense of it? Even in his delusional state, Monarch Qamar was smart. He knew that he got visions; he knew that his actions harmed people. However, he was mad at me because he claimed that once I started visiting he could not see his other visions. He could not see his daughter. He wanted to see her and I had stopped that. I did not know how but that is what he claimed. But then again why did I trust a delusional man's words.

No, I had to. If I wanted him to trust me, I needed to trust him too. I had to give his mind some credit; it had managed to still keep him relatively sane even after three years of pure torture. I just needed to find a way to communicate with him. I was not going to give up, not when things were finally becoming a bit clear.

I stared at the door to his room. If I went inside again, it would bug him and he would react even if he did not want to. I needed to think of a way to have him talk, keep him with me rather than in his mind.

How could I make him understand me? Something in my mind told me that he did understand me but was choosing not to show or believe me. I could not blame him. In his mind, he was still fighting the battle of real and not-real.

I rubbed my forehead and glanced at the exit. There was no point thinking over it. It was late and I was feeling sleepy. I stood and walked towards the exit; the guards opened the door for me and wished me a good night. I nodded and smiled at them and I made my way to my chamber.

But just as I was about to reach the chambers, I felt this urge to go under the night sky. Even though it was warm, I just wanted to feel the fresh air against my skin. I wanted to hear the crickets and I wanted to stare at the mesmerizing moon. It had been my companion for long.

I could not help but smile at the way I behaved. It seemed that all I did was follow my instincts blindly without thinking of any consequences. I used to think a lot before my every action but now I had changed. I relied on my instincts more than my mind and so far it did not prove to be a wrong decision.

I hovered a bit in front of Asad's door, unsure if I should wake him up. We had been a bit distant lately and I knew it was my fault. I had been distant. In fact, I had been distant with everyone. I just felt that did not understand me anymore.

I shook my head, he must be asleep and I would only be troubling him. Turning completely I walked to the end of the hallway and climbed the steps down until I reached the backdoor. I stared at my feet and smiling widely I removed my sandals. I was going to walk bare foot just as I did when I was a child in the village.

The Guards opened the backdoor for me and I headed towards their private garden. I titled my head a little so that I could stare at the night sky. I could see twinkling stars scattered in clusters all over the soot black sky. The moon shimmered in her beauty and the small star beside her twinkled in delight.