The Pointless Book

Late Night Worries

Do I talk too much or not enough?
I know I can't control everything

I am forgetting everything as soon as it happens,
Pained by everything that I need to let go of

You know, there's safety in self destruction
Because at least you know where you're gonna go

I'm very alone but, I will not reach out
Please don't come to me, I am panic attacks and nosebleeds

You know I used to suffer from fools,
Shouting less than I thought and breaking things that I bought
I learnt a lot of patience but, I never want to be complacent

Sorry if this is weird,
I'm just trying to pinpoint what exactly happened to me
I'm very alone but, I refuse to reach out
Please don't come to me, these are not battle scars, these are the echoes of a disorder

There's blood under your nails
But, I will not ask questions
I've been suffocating for years
Drowning in all of your fears

What did I bury underneath?

Oh god! I need to go
There is a past and I remember it