Tythan One Shots

Drown.

I walk
To you
Rain falls
From you
Can you
Wash me
Can you
Drown me?
Tyler felt stuck
As if he was under water and every time he tried to breathe
Salt water was the only thing that greeted his lungs
And every time he would cry
It would only add to the ocean
His ocean of worry, self doubt, self loathing and hatred.
The ocean of depression, anxiety, and uncertainty.
I wanna be a lot of things
So much pent up inside of me
I wanna be stronger, too long I've sat here undecidedly.
Planning strategy, half of me knows it's all just a fallacy
Failing miserably, drastically
And then I crash dramatically
Nothing was going right it felt like no matter what he did, nothing changed.
He felt miserable, and tired
There were so many things to do and see. But he felt he didn't deserve it
He felt drowned
Then I hit a wall
I've hit a hundred times before, and yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains on the floor.
And I'm back in front of you lord, with blood on the floor Is the blood mine or yours?
He struggled to stay a float at first.
Then slowly he sunk to the bottom
Where his fears festered
And his own thoughts pestered him
Under the water he tried to cry to anyone
Anyone who could hear him
But under water no one hears you scream.
I don't want to do this anymore
Tyler wants his thoughts to stop.
He wanted to feel something besides water and the cold.
Back and forth
Between me and who you call me to be
You see a man free who thinks he has to buy a key
To a door
But he can't cause he's poor
And he can't
Fall down anymore cause he's already on the floor
And his heart is broken and all and this is his scar but it's warm
From crying
Cause he will try nine times to realize nine crimes but he has more than nine lives
Tyler would try so hard to get better
But it was just so fucking hard to try and feel when you feel nothing at all.
Tyler wasn't dead
He was just drowned
Drowned in his problems
Drowned in his love
But just because he was drowned doesn't mean he wasn't heaving salt water when he resurfaced
Just because he was drowned it didn't mean that he couldn't breathe
So he picks himself up and keeps climbing for the prize
Again
His prize was Ethan. Their love and their harmony. Ethan would sometimes go down with Tyler and help him swim up from the salt water.
And every time Tyler was thankful
Here I come again to you
Just to show you blood soaked through
Through my bones
And all I own is there a way for me to grow?
I walk
To you
Rain falls
From you
Can you
Wash me?
Can
You
Drown me?

A/N
The last two chapters that you've read
(Blood and drown)
Is basically a summary of how I've been feeling lately. Creatively drained and really stressed. I've been really wanting to relapse lately so I just wrote (blood) to help me cope.
(Drown) is an example of how I've been feeling lately.
Also drown is a song by twenty one pilots if you wanna check that out
(It's what I've been listening to lately)
(Tonight and Taken By Sleep are really good to)