Destiel One shots

Part 1 of Twelve: Baby (Dean's pov)

 *HIGHWAY TO HELL BLARING FROM Dean's PHONE AT five AM!!* 

         "Cas..what the hell it's like five .a.m. what's going on?" "Where are you Dean?" "I'm at the Star way motel room ten thirty two, why?" "Are you alone?" "Yeah..Cas what's-" I'm abruptly cut off by the dial tone as Cas hangs up. Then of course Cas shows up right in front of my face breaking my personal bubble,"Cas.." I close my eyes while angrily pinching the bridge of my nose. He attempts to look at me innocently failing almost immediately causing me to pout my lips, "Hi..I came here to see you..come with me." Cas says in an off tone. He must be having a bad day or something, he then goes to put his fingers to my forehead. "Hold up.." I say while taking his hand gently into my own but Cas responds by using his other hand to zap us into Baby, "Wait, what's going on?" I question him while absentmindedly pouting my lips at him. He hands me a slip of paper with coordinates to an exact location, "Drive here.." "Cas.." I say while letting out an annoyed sigh rubbing my eyes sleepily. "Now Dean!" He says urgently so I go without another word. About three hours later we pull into a little abandoned parking lot in the middle of woods, "What the hell is going on Cas?" I ask quietly. Cas says nothing before leaning in and kissing me lustfully, I don't hesitate to return the kiss even though it didn't feel the way I have always fantasized. I always imagined his lips to taste sweet like honey, the way he usually smells though this isn't bad. As the kiss deepens Cas practically shoves his tongue down my throat which I suppose isn't all that bad even though this isn't exactly the fireworks I expected in this moment. Before I had time to try to make the kiss less terrible Cas quickly pulls me into baby's backseat where he forcefully moves on top of me before going back to kissing me eagerly. Cas soon starts to impatiently remove his clothes as well as my own, I'm not sure that he's ready for this but I just go with it and attempt to help him the best I can. Fifteen frustrating minutes later our clothes are off and we're both entirely naked when Cas sits on top of me before slowly lowering himself onto me. Our breath fogged up the windows from moaning and breathing heavily as I sank in and out of Cas. I started slow at first then moved faster as Castiel demanded, I didn't expect him to be so rough in the sack but none the less I was happy about it just to be with him made it all worth it. We have sex until the sun comes up and even a little while after that until we both came a ball park range of about ten times. Not even five minutes later Cas gets up and starts getting dressed, "Dean...I must admit something..." Cas says in an unsure tone. I quickly pull on my boxers before sitting next to him, "What-what is it Cas?" I ask quietly. He has this look in his eyes that I have never seen before, "I'm..not...Castiel..." He says. I quickly throw on my pants while practically running from baby. He follows me before grabbing my arm, "Wait just a minute Dean, let me explain!!" He says sassily. I get in his face, "WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU AND WHY DID YOU DO THAT TO ME?!?" I yell angrily with blushed cheeks. He smiles, "I've admired you for so long Dean, I just knew you were only fond of the angel so I just shape shifted so you would fuck me..nobody has to know.." He says menacingly before winking and evilly grinning at me before walking away and shifting into a woman. "What the fuck? WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?!?" I yell now by myself in the cold out in the middle of no where. The woman had quickly gotten the hell outta dodge before I had the chance to strangle her. I stay here all day thinking while gathering my thoughts and pulling myself back together. By time I make my way back to the motel the sun is down, I get back to town at about 10 .p.m. As soon as I get inside I avoid Sam, Gabriel, and Castiel's stares  while walking directly passed them avoiding eye contact and quickly grabbing a beer. I chug it quickly and grab another before anybody has the chance to speak. I can tell by the way they're glancing at each other that they've been talking about me. Castiel and Gabriel exchange a look before Gabriel takes Sammy's hand and leaves. Sam looked at me and I could tell he wanted to stay but Gabriel made him go. Cas turns back toward me with hurt in his eyes and I can hardly breath or even take seeing the look in his eyes, "Dean.." He says as he walks up to me, close enough to break that whole personal space rule I had. "Where-where have you been?" Cas asks reluctantly, "I.." I regret coming back now, how could I even begin to explain the shittiest day of my entire life? I take a deep breath before attempting to continue, "I..it's been a long day Cas.." I say quietly while sitting down onto the bed not even noticing the tears streaming down my cheeks. Cas sits down carefully right next to me where his shoulder rubs against my own sending an eerie feeling down my spine, the familiar feeling of betrayal. I let out a deep sigh as I attempt to shake the memory of today while starting on my third beer, "Dean..maybe you should slow down.." Castiel said in a concerned tone, "Ugh, no.." I say quietly while  rolling my eyes now slightly buzzed and starting on my fourth beer. Cas makes me sit down on the bed and sits beside me again forcefully holding my hand like a young child who might run off. He looks deeply into my eyes, "Dean, just tell me what happened today..please.." Cas pleads desperately while leaning in closely, I quickly look away down to the floor unable to keep looking into his eyes, "I-I...I really don't want to talk about it.." I say shakily while standing up and grabbing another beer before sitting next to Cas on the mattress a second time only a little further away this time. Cas scoots closer before carefully taking the beer from my hands and taking both of my hands into his own, "Fine..we don't have to talk about it..just please slow down..you're drinking pretty fast Dean, too fast.." Cas says in a patient tone, "Nuh..uh.." I reply as I slip one of my hands free and grab out the bottle of jack I have hidden in my jacket before turning away quickly chugging it. "DEAN!!!" Cas says scornfully taking my booze from me, "Oh come on..Cas!!" I yell back angrily. I'm drunk now and fall onto the floor, Castiel throws himself on top of me pinning me onto the surprisingly soft blue carpet. "Dean please explain what the hell happened to you today." Cas says sternly with a desperate look in his teary eyes, I breath heavily nearly having a panic attack underneath of Castiel, "This..bitch.." I mumble out between exasperated breaths, "What? What bitch Dean?" Castiel asks his face full of concern, "I-I just...can't...I can't..tell you about it..it's all my fault and it's disgusting.." I  say before quickly pushing him off of me and stumbling to my feet. He stands up as well helping me even though I resist, "Dean I don't..understand what it is that you're talking about.." Cas says quietly while walking up to me and standing in front of me leaned in closely where I shush him by putting a finger to his lips while holding on to his trench coat so I won't fall, "One-one thing..that I will say...in my defense..I was sleep deprived..." I  say drunkenly before falling again pulling Cas down on top of me again. He almost speaks again but I interrupt him. "And-and...I..thought-I thought..it was you..dammit" I say quietly before letting out a sigh, Cas' eyes widen but he doesn't move or say anything. He's probably still confused but I don't care at the moment I'm drunk and ready to go to sleep. We lay there on the floor in silence for what seems like forever before he gets up and carefully takes my hands helping me to me feet. He then quickly pulls me into a hug,"It's okay..I understand Dean..." He whispers into my ear before pulling back slowly and kissing me softly on the lips. Then he laid me onto the bed and cuddled up to me causing me fall asleep. For now everything's okay.