I'm looking.
But i'm not finding.
When its finally close.
It fades away.
I don't know the words to describe it.
When I do..
I have nobody to tell them to.
So I just forget.
Hoping for no regrets.
Obviously a person can't have everything.
I only want one thing.
I want it the most of all.
I want to get better.
Maybe I should tell that to people.
Or write it in a letter.
Because the words are hard to say out loud.
When people say what are you actually whining about.
I want to be always happy.
Trust me I really want to.
But not everbody gets me.
So what should I do.
Keeping talking in myself.
To worried to tell somebody else.
I show that fake smile.
When people turn around.
I can't help but cry for a while.
I want to be strong.
To know where I truly belong.
Is this place right or is it wrong.
Looking for comfort.
But getting rejection.
I tell the truth.
Some tell me I lie.
Should I even care.
Or simply just ignore.
I end up just writing.
Expressing my true feelings.
I'm trying my best.
I'm already much better.
But i'm not alone.
So don't ignore this letter.
I had a very bad depression.
Talking to the proffesionals.
Another day, Another session.
I do it now without the help.
Hoping that I will stay strong.
That I want to wake up in the morning.
My expression in my writing.
Getting in a better world while reading.
The fighting was so hard.
Especially in the start.
Getting away from those horrible dreams.
Dead was then the best solution it seemed.
I know now that wasn't true.
My goal in life is making people happy.
Help others to get better.
Starting with writing this letter.
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ESTÁS LEYENDO
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PoesíaIn this book I write all my poetry. Its inspired by my feelings,thoughts and personal experiences. I hope others can relate to it. Happy reading.