what to do

don't give up

They told me to be perfect.

Stop bothering them with imperfections.

To go away.

Not thinking about coming back.

I wasn't worth their attention.

Let alone their friendship.

In their eyes I was nothing.

Just a waste of space.

I cared to much about their opinion.

Letting them get me.

I should never let them in.

Their words keeping on repeat inside my head.

At home it wasn't much better.

Why was I even alive.

After all the times I shouldn't be.

Getting told to kill myself.

Just I refused to listen.

Yes I felt alone.

But I wouldn't let them win.

Wanting to be stronger.

Suicide was appeared in my nightmares.

Than I called them dreams.

Staying silent.

Afraid to let hear my voice.

It was hard to keep fighting.

But I never gave up.

Hoping for better times to come.

In the end they did.

Now i'm in a better place.

I like my imperfections.

It makes me who I am.

I refuse to change.

The battle isn't over.

Its not easy to win.

I just keep on trying.

Giving up is not my destiny.

Some ask what are your biggest wishes.

Most don't have the answer.

Unlike most I really do.

I only want two things most of all.

I want to survive depression.

I want to help others who go trough the same.

Helping them is my biggest dream.

I believe that will be my destiny.