what to do

confused emotions

Was it even real.

Or was it all in my head.

Was it to good to be true.

Did I break the rules.

Should I forget.

Maybe that saves some regret.

Words in my head.

Not being writting on the paper yet.

Afraid of the reaction.

Of all the judgement.

Would they listen.

Or is it all a waste.

Am I even realistic.

Or is insecure a better word.

The words spining around.

It seems like they are put on repeat.

Beggin to come all out.

Will I ever dare to say it out loud.

It seems to confusing.

The memories all mixed up.

The idea of doing it all wrong.

That's what scares me the most.

Not knowing what to say.

Maybe its not the right day.

Should I keep it in.

Just run away and hide.

I wish I had the answer.

And just knew what to do.