Namimori: Reborn (KHR Fanfic) *Discontinued*

Chapter 28

I didn't know what was worst. The god awful headaches knocking me out half the time or getting chased by mafiosos. Either way, I'd still prefer getting chased right now because this headache feels excrutiatingly painful, I can barely move much less think without wanting to vomit in pain. These headaches are consuming the majority of my life, physically and  mentally. As suddenly as the pain appears it disappears without a trace. I stood up gasping for air, relieved at the lack of pain. Jillian hasn't talked to me in weeks and the frequency of these headaches continues to grow.
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My head slammed against the wall, as I hopefully wished the external pain would block out the internal.
"Stupid, stop doing that, you're going to be more stupid."
I groaned and glanced up Gokudera.
"You shut up, your voice is hurting me more than a cat running its nails across a chalkboard."
"If you're just going to slam your head against the tenth's wall and complain, you could do it at home."
"No, it hurts more there for some reason."
"What about the school? The park? JUST LEAVE, IT'S ANNOYING THE F*CK OUT OF ME!"
"E-eh Gokudera-kun, Futa is downstairs, besides we're here discussing who is going to be our cloud guardian. N-Nika?"
"Shhhh."
"This woman. She only shows up when it's convenient and manages to miss all the dangerous situations we went through, the least you can do is help tenth, you haven't watched any of the battles for the rings."
"I'd like to remind you, I have the sun flame, so not gonna be your cloud guardian."
"Obviously, we've been trying to convince Hibari, but you've asleep 3/4 of time we try to ask you, besides you can't even fight."
"It's not my fault, I get the god of all migraines everyday."
Tsuna sighed looking at his friends, "Can you please stop arguing?"
He was tired of this whole mess, he was thankful for the friends he had gained, but the stress of the present and future of Vongola has consumed much of their normal lives, as much as they attempted to retain it. He was dragging more and more normal people(despite some with eccentric behaviours) into this danger. Yamamoto, Ryohei, Kyoko, Haru, and now Hibari(though he seems to fit right in with the dangerous lifestyle), they are more in danger today than when he wasn't a potential successor, when he was still no good Tsuna. For now he suppose, he would just have to keep living and keep working for his friends happiness and safety. This argument wasn't helping.
"Your voice is making my head hurt worse. Hibari is the cloud guardian, I get that, but just because I speak to him doesn't mean I have influential power to control Nanimori's beast."
"...I know it's more than just speaking terms."
"We are not dating!"
"Heh, I never said anything about dating, are you telling me something??"
"Aghhh, you obviously knew what you were implying! Get someone strong, he'll at least show interest in them!"
Tsuna dropped his face on the table tired of the constant arguing.
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Ah yes. I forget sometimes that this life is something that was given.
Am I doing my life justice?
My hand ran across the cold backboard of the bench I was resting on. The starry night sky dimly lit the empty park. The sound of crickets filled the air melding in with the rustling of leaves.
Do I simply exist in this world as well?
I spend a lot of time sleeping these days. I was roped into an already existing storyline. One that was perfect without me. I merely exist. If I do do anything, it hasn't been very good.

What did I use to do when I felt like this...I don't really remember, but oh well, I guess.

'Nika.'
Ah, Jillian.

My mind floated in a state of emptiness as I greeted her thoughtlessly.

'Go home.'

I stood up and began walking.
Do I deserve this life?

I reached my apartment door and simply stood there.

At some point, this door no longer led to the warm feeling of a home. Maybe that's why I'm never here. I suppose I enjoy the companionship of the others. But...

They're all so close, even Hibari. They're all connected, their existence woven together in one piece.
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.
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Why do I feel so lonely?

'Go in Nika.'

I entered the living room.

'Go behind the chair Nika. Pick up the box.'

I don't want to feel that.

I leant down and grasped a small, smooth box.

'Open it Nika.'

I love them all, why I would think that.

The open box revealed the ring that I had first seen long ago when I had first crashed into this world. The clear orb shone in the moon's light. The silver band that held it glimmered seeming to call out.

'The Pellucid Ring. Wear it.'

I cherish this life.

I took the ring inbetween my fingers and placed the box on the floor. The ring caught the moonlight.

I held the ring above my left hand, about to slide it down on my middle finger.

"STOP! Nika!"

I snapped out of my daze, dropping the ring. Reborn promptly caught it and placed it back in the box. My head snapped to him, surprised.

"Reborn?"

I looked at the black ring box in his hand.

"Nika, I can not allow you to wear this ring, but I also can't take it."

"What do you mean? What is it?" I asked, shocked at his sudden entrance.

Jillian?
No answer.

"Nika this ring belongs to another famiglia and as of now the owner is you. I would be in trouble if I took it. This ring has been an immense source of power at one time to its user."

I nodded, waiting for an answer to the obvious question.

"Out of all the people who have tried wearing this ring, only one has been successful. The creator."

I stared at the box.

"..and everyone else?"

"They were consumed by the power to the point their bodies no longer exist."

A chill rushed down my spine, shaking my body.

"Why me?"

"You had a previous life. Though it wasn't much of a life."

"..so you're saying I will die if I put that ring on."

"Surely."

Silence filled the room.

"Nika, we can't lose you."

Reborn placed the ring box into my hands.

"Reborn, tell me, these migraines, the voice in my head, the reason why I'm here and not 6 feet under, it's all connected somehow to this ring."

"Yes."

"Reborn, you know the truth to all this and I know you won't tell me all of it now, but this life given to me. It was given to me so that I would test try the Pellucid Ring. So, what happens now? I'm not going to wear it and they probably want to move on to the next being that will try it.....I'm not going to be here much longer am I?"

I took the following silence as confirmatiom. I sighed, collapsing to the floor.

"Haha, it's not going to be pretty. These migraines probably mean that this body is already breaking down, isn't it? Hahaha, Ah sh*t if they're this bad right now" I crossed my legs while staring up at the ceiling.

"...I guess I'd go out the long way rather then putting on this ring huh. Ey, Reborn. Hide this somewhere in the apartment will you?" I handed him the ring box "I might just grab it to end these migraines one day, that wouldn't be good."

Reborn stared at me with his dark eyes.
"I'll hide the box for you Nika, but remember, I did say we can't lose you."

My eyes began to water, "Thank you Reborn."

He smirked, "Thank your friends too, they wouldn't let you go so easily."