April 23

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by WriteDrunk

by WriteDrunk

Dear Diary, April 23, 2014

I don't regret waking up next to Ashton naked.

I don't regret touching him.

I don't regret calling Aleisha.

I don't regret telling her to come stay awhile because "we should catch up".

Nope, not at all.

I can't even lie to a journal.

I can't explain my reasoning for calling my ex, especially after having sex with my sort of boyfriend.

But I did and now she's on a plane to the UK, just like that.

I feel like a dumbass.

But you don't hate me, do you journal?

I'm such a fucking dumbass, considering these are my thoughts.

Journals can't fucking speak.

And yes, journal, Ashton knows. And that's why he's "going out". But to be honest, I think he's in a bar.

How much of a dick can you be to sleep with a guy who's obviously in love with you, only to call your ex the next day?

Apparently, you have to be Luke dick.

I hope Ashton's okay. I didn't mean to hurt him.

Did I?

Why is it so hard for me to understand that I like guys? That I like Ashton? It's like my mind is scrambled and I hate it. I hate it, I hate it.

I just want to sleep.

-Luke

I'd say *rubs chin* 5-6 more chapters.

I really love you guys wow

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-Katie♡