I know
it is just a feeling
feeling Im feeling from so long
I know
it is nothing
nothing that makes me go mad
I have always been like this
people goes out to have fun
while I stay home
and
tell myself it is more fun
I know
it's not good
but I do it anyways
I have fear of losing myself out there
and
I'm scared
that no one will even see me doing that.
I want to be visible
yet I choose to hide myself from the world
I can be funny
but I feel alone after the laughing
I get mad easily
without reasons
I cry so badly
I know
it's not good
but I can't help it
no one can help it.
