Lost And Found

Chapter Twelve

CHAPTER TWELVE

Denise got to her apartment that evening and for some reason she felt like she was going to cry. She called Selasi to lighten up her mood but Selasi wasn’t picking up. Then she came across his number….Kobe. It was still on her phone.
She was about to delete it when she had second thoughts….
'maybe I should tell him about the pregnancy, but then again he would think I'm lying or probably trying to trap him or something, hell let him think whatever he wants I'm not going to raise this kid alone'
She dialed the number and waited to hear his voice. He answered and said hello.
"We need to talk" She said.
"Deni what a surprise, yeah I think we do"
"Meet me at our favorite….. I mean, Uncle Waffles, tomorrow at 11, can you?"
"Sure I'll be there"
"How are you holding up anyway?"
"Umm, I'm ok, thanks" He said.
"Great to hear, be safe okay" Denis said and hang up. She made dinner, took a shower and ate whiles watching her favorite program, she'd left her phone in her room and didn't hear it when Sam called……. only to see two missed calls the following morning from Sam, and Selasi.

She knew she was going to be late for her meeting with Kobe but she didn't really care. Denise took her time to have breakfast, take a shower and put on a black dress just to send a message across.
She finally left home and got to their rendez vous thirty minutes past their meet up time, he was already there waiting with a cup of coffee.
"Hi' She sat across from him.
"Hi"
"I'm Sorry I'm late" She lied.
"Don't worry about it, how are you doing?"
"What can I say, I'm alive"
"You look……" He frowned.
"I look what?"
"Tired" He said.
"Its been a long week" She said.
"How is your book coming along?"
"Almost done meeting with the publishers on Saturday"
"Great….so what did you want to talk about?" He asked and her heart began to race.
"There's something you should know"
"Okay"
"I didn't think now would be the right time……on second thought,, now is not the right time, maybe we should talk after the funeral, speaking of which, when is it?"
"This weekend"
"Saturday, come on, I have a major appointment I can't miss"
"It's okay, you could pass by later"
"I'm sorry but I would try to pass by"
"Thanks, but really tell me what it is"
"Not today, sorry I wasted your time"
Being with you is never a waste of time"
"Kobe cut it out already you're beginning to sound desperate"
"I am desperate…..i really want you" He said.
"Okay I'm out of here' She stood but he grabbed her arm.
"No please don't" He said and slowly she sat.
"When is the wedding?" Denise asked.
"Deni…."
"You should send me an invitation, unless of course you think I might wreck it"
He was quiet. He just stared at her.
"Look I'm sorry about us about what happened about me hurting you, about everything"
"What did you see in her that wasn’t in me?"
"Deni please don't do this"
"I want to know"
"I can't tell you…."
'I want to know Kobe!" She raised her voice.
"I don't know, she just…..stuff just happened"
"You're a liar and a cheat and a selfish bastard" She said with all the calm she could gather but inside she was tearing up.
"I don't know what I saw in you that made me think you were worth it, worth everything, my heart, my love, my body…..i regret everything I had with you, I regret meeting you, falling for you….everything" She felt a bout of tears gather and almost immediately they were fully moulded, they dropped down her face, she wiped them with her hand.
"Just having to look you sitting over there and me over here and not being able to tear you apart the way you have torn me apart, just that……kills me. I want you to feel what I'm feeling, I want you to hate yourself the way I hate myself right now"
"I do" He said and she chuckled.
"You do, like you're going to cancel the wedding"
"I don't have a choice Deni"
"You always have a choice Kobe, everyone does, they just make up excuses why they can't make that decision, and you're one of those pathetic people just like I am" She said and stood up but this time he didn't hold her back, he watched her go. Deni stepped out and inhaled deeply, then exhaled. She felt like she couldn’t breathe, she took a moment to calm herself but when she was sure she wasn’t going to calm down any moment from then, she stopped a cab and headed straight home.
She was surprised to find Sam at her door.
"Sam, what are you doing here?"
"are you okay?" Immediately realizing that she had been crying he asked.
"I'm fine, but why are you here?"
"I'm checking up on you"
"I'm fine just go home okay, I really want to be alone right now"
"No you don't" He said.
"Sam please"
"I would if you tell me whats going on"
"Nothing is going on, I met him and I tried to tell him about the baby but I froze, I couldn’t and instead I told him I hated him and I wished he would just drop dead, I wished he died instead of his mom, sorry for saying that but its how I feel"
"His mom died?"
"Yeah"
"That’s horrible" Sam said.
"Yeah it is but seriously Sam please go home"
"Deni I'm not leaving" He said. She unlocked her door and just as the lock clicked she felt a sharp pain I her stomach and groaned.
"What happened?"
"There was this pain…but it s gone now" She took a moment to make sure of that and when she was certain she walked in.
"We need to get you checked up"
"No we don't I'm fine"
"Deni this is a baby we're talking about, and its not normal to feel sharp pains this early"
"Don't you think I know that" She snapped.
"You're having a bad day and I suggest you calm down"
She sighed and lay down on the couch breathing.
"You need to stop stressing yourself out"
She said nothing.
"Do you still love him?"
"How is that relevant to the current discussion?"
"Well you're having his baby"
"And I just told you I want to kill him, how can I love him?"
"I think you do"
"Sam stop, I don't want to talk about Kobe anymore okay"
"Okay I wont raise him again, I just want to know one thing, would you go back to him if you found out that all this, he lying about the pregnancy and all was he protecting you from something, probably he's not even engaged, he just wants to get rid of you because he's dying"
She turned to look at him and sat up.
"This is not a movie Sam"
"You haven't answered my question"
"I don't know" She said.
"That right there is enough proof you still have feelings for him" He smiled.
"Why are you smiling like it’s a good thing to still be in love with a jerk like him?"
"I'm just smiling"
"Well don't" She snapped angrily.
Okay chill okay, gee, this pregnancy is getting to you"
"Whats that supposed to mean?"
"I was just kidding"
"You're not helping Sam"
"Okay I'll keep my mouth shut okay"
"I'll raise this baby without him, I can do that……I surely can"
"Lets just hope he's not a boy"
"Why should we hope that?"
"Boys need their fathers"
"Just as girls do" Deni said.
"I mean they need their fathers when it gets to those times when they want to know what sex is all about and why they're having erections and sensual dreams or why they have a certain attraction to a particular girl……"
"Eww, just stop"
"Well its necessary" He laughed.
"This isn't funny Sam, when it gets there I'll cross that bridge"
"Well you better start planning how" He teased.
She stood and walked to the kitchen, grabbed two cans of coke and handed one to him.
"Thanks"
"Hungry?" She asked.
"Kinda, are you going to cook?"
"Yeah" She smiled. Sam stayed with her as she cooked, the duo conversing and he passing her items when she asked for it. In no time their lunch was ready and they ate together at the table chatting and laughing.
"So, she's Crystal's sister, Nadia, I mean"
"Yeah, and my mom thinks she's into me"
"And you don't think so?"
"No, I mean why would  a girl like Nadia want to be with me?"
"Why wouldn’t she?"
"She's loved by almost all the guys I know who've met her"
"So?"
"Well I don't feel anything for her if that’s what you want to know"
"Why would I care?" She asked and he looked up.
"I don't know, yeah, why would you care?" He repeated and continued eating.
She felt bad about saying that.
"I'm sorry" She quickly apologized.
"For what?"
"Saying that"
"Don't be"
"No I should be, I mean you care about me so much, I'm not saying like in a special way or anything coz you care about everyone else just the same way but I should care too, it shouldn’t be one sided"
"Well you bought me strings" He said and she laughed.
"And I do care about you Denise in a special way, trust me" He said sincerely and her heart fluttered.
"That reminds me, the youth fest is in a few weeks, you should contact Dave"
"Well he took my number, I came up with some ideas though will let him know when he calls"
"Great, you should start working on something though"
"Okay I will, so you'll be performing?"
"Yeah, everyone would"
"Really, yeah, it's going to be fun, you'll love it"
Deni's phone began to ring.
"Excuse me she said and got up to get it. It was Selasi.
"Hey you….uh huh….really……oh my God seriously, that’s great, I can't wait to see you……me too……okay love call me soonest okay, sure bye, my love to Neil" She hang up and returned to the table.
"My best friend is coming to London, told her so much about you"
"Nice, can't wait to see this female person I remind you of"

A/N

Hi guys for some reason, chapter thirteen decided to appear before sixteen nd seventeen, so pls tap the chapter icon  three vertical dots
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