I've been texting Alex and he hasn't been replying, but Dom's been texting me nonstop. He's really excited about our first date. Honestly, I'm a little nervous, I have no idea how this is going to go.
I walk to my small closet getting out a white tank top, grey black cardigan, black tight skinny jeans. Then slip into my clothes.
I look in the mirror fixing my makeup, and letting my jet black wavy hair lay over my breasts.
"This shouldn't be so bad." I mumble to myself, looking at my longing reflection. I'm not sure why I looked that way. I had a date. I finished my hair and gently put on my lipstick, painting a smile on my mouth.
Putting on my shoes, I hear a knock at the door.
"Who is it?" I yell, knowing very well who it is. I walk out of my room, picking up my phone on the way.
"Hey, uh, Sam. I'll be back in a bit." I say looking at her. She just nods. "Text me if you need anything?"
Sam breathes. "Trust me I won't."
I'm not sure what it is but things between her and I have been awkward lately. I understand why she did that thing with Alex. He deserved to know. But I feel like there's something more going on. Maybe it has to do with what happened between us after the beach party.
I answer the door and smile at Dom.
"Ready to go?" He inquires.
"Mhm." I say, wrapping my arm around his.
"So I kinda have this planned out." He confesses as we both get in the car. I laugh a little at the sound of him planning this.
I'm more of a go with the flow but this is different. I need different right now. I can't stop thinking about Alex. I can't imagine being in his position though. I'd probably not text back either.
"Where are we going?" I ask him. He glances over at me then back at the road.
"It's a surprise." He smiles.
I relax back in my seat and enjoy the ride. It takes about 15 minutes until we pull up to this sushi place. I'm not a huge fan of sushi but he planned this and is super excited about it so I'll just order something else. Not sushi.
He grins, "we're here."
"Can't wait to get inside." I say, smiling and getting out of the car. I see he has a big smile on my face that expresses satisfaction with himself.
He gets out of the car and takes my hand as we walk inside together. I didn't know he knew how to act like a gentleman, but I suppose that's because I never went on a date with him.
We get seated and order our food.
"Why didn't you order sushi?" He asks, confused.
"I... uhm.. I... well honestly I didn't want to look like a pig when I ate it." I say, lying through my teeth. He can't really detect when I'm lying though. Dom doesn't know me well enough yet.
He laughs. "It would be fine."
Our waiter brings us our food and I look down at what I ordered. Slightly satisfied with the look but nauseous with the smell. I smile and mouth a thank you to our waiter. Dom eats his meal and I sort of eat mine. I more of picked at my food than ate it. When we're both finished he pays for the meals and we leave. I really wanted to split the meal with him but he insisted.
I start walking to the car to get in, not noticing Dom walking the other way. He stands there and laughs at me.
"Where are you going?" He raises a brow, smiling.
"I, uhm, obviously I don't know." I walk back over to him. We walk down the street holding hands. It's not like our usual hand in hand but I kind of like it.
I look up at him as we walk down the block to the mall. It's a nice evening out. Not to hot. But we still could've driven.
"Now, I'm going to buy you anything you want." He says as we walk into Pink.
I look at him, then at the store, then back at him.
"Uhhhh." I groan a little. "Dom. I didn't know you took me for a Pink kinda girl." I smile.
"Well, I can't see you in anything in Victoria Secret store. So I brought you here." He looks around.
I walk over to a sports bra and a pair of sweats. "I think these are good." I say, looking to make sure they're my size. He takes them for me and cashes out. I wish he'd stop doing things like that. I can pay. But it's a 'date'.
I look down at my phone to see if there's a message from Alex. He walks over with my bag, he's had that smile on his face all day.
"Dom, as much as I love spending time with you.... it's getting kinda late. I should get back home to Sam." I look at him with a half smile, as we walk.
"Oh. Okay." He says, sounding more disappointed than he's ever sounded.
We walk back to the car. On the way back to my place. I bring up what happen last week. It was a conversation like:
"I'm sorry about the whole Alex thing."
"Don't worry about it; it's your business. I don't judge you."
Other than that the ride was quiet. When we finally arrived at my apartment he looked sad as if he wanted me to stay.
"Thank you for the date. I had a good time." I smile to him waving before I walk inside.
Dom smiles and waves back, then drives off. I walk inside and see Sam.
"How was your date?" She asks.
I shrug. "It was good. Maybe our connection is just a little slow. But I'm new at this dating thing."
She nods with this devilish smirk on her face. "Well. Maybe I can help. Oh. We could double date." She says.
I look down. "Honestly I need a break." I slump to my room and lay down on my comfy bed big enough for more than just me. I plug my phone into the charger and get more messages saying that I'm a slut and I don't deserve happiness.
I place my phone on the nightstand. Tears now escaping my dark green eyes. I take my cardigan off, throwing it across the room, then pull out my already rolled blunt from earlier. I need this so much right now. I light it and take a couple hits before putting it out.
Staring up at the ceiling my minds racing a thousand miles a minute.
Why am I getting all these random messages? Who cares what I do with my life? It's no one else's business. I can say I definitely learned my lesson though. I miss Alex so much. Time with Dom is okay. Why is Sam acting like a snobbish bitch? Is it because we had sex weeks ago? She said it meant nothing. I don't get it.... at this moment I'm not sure I get anything.
"I can't think about this right now." I whisper to myself, tears rolling down my cheeks. I wipe the tears away and push everything to the back of my mind, slowly falling asleep.
