Second Chances

Opening Up

It was Tuesday and I had the boys while Seth had Brook. I had a match against Becky tonight. Sunday was to much for me. Becky got on stage and they were stripping for her. I had a little too much to drink. According to Brie, who was 'sober' I was all over the place. I did wake up with a hangover and got the kids today because Monday I was just on the bathroom floor.  

Brie came in my room to find me passed out with my head lying on the toilet seat.

"Nikki you're fucking gross."

Anyway I was in the arena, playing with the kids. I was the only one in the arena early, because I had meeting with Shane. Just future plans and when I could maybe get the title.

"I'm going to get you." I say chasing Dax and Brayden. They laugh and run all over the place. They end up running out the door and I was in fucking heels. "Fuck." I mumble, going after them. I try to run after them and they're pretty fast for two year olds. I finally catch them and they're in catering eating cookies.

"You guys are just like Brie and your dad." I say. I grab them and take them to one of the tables. I sit them down and scroll through my Instagram. I like many fan posts.

"Hey." I look up from my phone and see Alexa.

"Hey." I smile at her.

"I saw your stuff with the kids in the locker room and thought you'd be here." She says.

"You know them so well." I say. She nods and sits down next to me.

"So I have a question for you."

"Yeah."

"Now don't take this personal and stuff, but we're just trying to help."

"Okay go ahead."

"Nikki why are you not going to admit you still love Seth." I stare at her.

"I- I don't l-love him an-anymore." I say, pinching myself for stuttering.

"Nikki just talk to me, I'm worried for you."

"I'm okay."

"Nikki I'm not kidding open up to me." I sigh and stare at her and the kids.

"It's hard seeing him in the halls or on tv, when I was in China, I would always watch Smackdown just to see his face again." I say. "I would look at Dax and Brayden and all I would see is Colby." I say tears threatening to spill. "And when I found him, all I ever wanted to do was smack the shit out of him, but deep down I wanted to walk back through that door and be with him." The tears fall down my cheeks as I speak.

"I'm afraid that he'll move on, because he's made no attempts to get me back, but if he would to I know I'll say no because I need to stay true to myself." I say wiping my tears.

"Nikki you have to hear him out."

"I don't want to hear his bullshit excuse." I say.

"Nikki I'm just telling you this because I care for you." She looks down almost as if she's thinking to say what she's going to say next. "But when he moves on and signs the divorce papers, you'll regret not taking him back." She says, staring right into my eyes. I look down knowing she's right. "Nikki look me in my eyes and tell me you don't love Seth." I look up and stare into her eyes.

"I- I don't l-love Seth Rollins." I say. She looks at me in disbelief. "I love Colby Lopez, because he would never cheat on me like Seth Rollins would." I say.

"Now go tell him."

"I can't."

"Why not."

"It's because I can't face him, I feel like I'll break down." I say.