Never ever gonna let you go [ Markson]

Chapter 36

*Jackson's p.o.v*

I woke up to the sun shining In my eyes...I had passed out on the couch.

I took a moment to realize what happened yesterday...

The girl had been over again and then made me stone hard drunk and I started to call people on my phone...Wait who did I call?

I look at my call history and I see how called Mark and Jaebum I tried to think what I said when I called them and Then It hit me.

How I called Mark and this boy Yugyeom answered and then this bitch came to make out with me and me being drunk and stupid answered the kiss...But I didn't get turned on by It so she left pissed and I tried to see If the call was still on but It wasn't so I waited for a bit and then tried to call Jaebum And he answered quite fast I tried to tell him I have fucked  up and that I really want Mark back...But then Yugyeom was back...But his words Is a blur for me. 

While trying to figure out what he said I tried to clean up the dorm a little and I tried to stretch a little. I went into the Shower and Had some "shower thoughts" and then It flashed back to me 

'I wanted to thank you for fucking up we got our little Markie back home' 

what did he mean by that? did Mark tell them How Horrible I am? I knew Jaebum lied to me when he said Mark doesn't hate me...Of course, he hates me Why wouldn't he hate me? I fucking ruined him...

Someone knocked on the dorm door. Wow, people can't seem to leave me the fuck alone....

I opened the door and I see Sehun there.

"Hello Jackson, Is Mark here?" He asks and I stand there with a poker face and shake my head no

"Do you know where he is?" he asks me and I stand there thinking for a while If I should lie and say no or tell the truth and say he left to go to the USA...

"I don't know you tell me" I answered  still with a poker face

"What are you talking about?" He asks me confused

"You were the one spreading the picture around cause you were mad I got Mark... I get It no need Rub It In my face the fact that I lost Mark" I tell him with no emotions.But In reality, I fucked up myself I could've told the people I was with I'm gay

"No only my fault Is It now?" he asks with a smug face...I was too tired to even punch that smile off him 

"I already know you were also the one making Mark drunk before he left...You wanted him to say he hated me and honestly...You didn't need to do that either cause I already hate myself for what I did" I tell him

"I just wanted him to say It Himself since he bottle things up," He tells me 

"I don't even see what you get out of this, Sehun...Once Mark comes back He either moves to Jaebum or Navi and then neither you or I won't see him so we both lost," I say trying to close the door

"You don't fucking get It do you, Jackson Wang?" He asks me getting mad. I honestly Don't know why he is getting mad

"I didn't even have feelings for Mark In the start...But when I knew you were with him I had to ruin it for you...I don't lose a shit In this You do" He says almost crying

"the fuck you talking about?" I ask him 

"you Don't remember me? I am Sehun from your old school...You always got the best the teachers loved you EVERY FUCKING PERSON LOVED  you...and I was just a friend to you...a friend that always got the confessions I WAS SUPPOSED TO GIVE TO YOU AND WHEN I HEARD ABOUT MARK I GOT MAD AND I WANTED TO FUCKING RUIN YOU AND HIS RELATIONSHIP" He screams at me 

"So... everything you did... meant nothing to you?" I ask him trying to cope what he is saying

"I am trying to tell you That I am winning In this and you lose," He tells me and walks away from there.

I slam the door shut. So He did not want Mark He Only wanted my life hell...I can't let him win though...I can't, He knew I would do this... That fucking bastard 

I then lose my mind and just starts smashing shit 

*Mark's p.o.v*

We were at Tammy's house and Jaebum was In the living room by his own. While Tammy was away working and BamBam was playing with Leila and Kailey.

"Jaebum?" I ask

"Yes, Mark?" He asks me and looks up from his phone 

"I have something to ask.." I say

"aha?" 

"Do you think It would be okay If I stayed here for a little longer?...and do you think It's worth maybe I don't know Hopp off the program In right Now maybe?" I say looking at the floor 

"Well That Is up to you" He answers quite simple

"I don't know anymore...I just feel so welcome here and I haven't felt that In a while" I mumble 

"You wanna move home again Is that what you're telling me?" He asks chuckling 

"NO! or well...I don't know..Maybe? I need more time to think about It" I mumble

"Well I support It no matter what you chose," He says smiling at me

"Thanks, Jaebum I really needed that...what do you think Jackson will say?" I ask him Quite ashamed of asking that 

"you really wondering what Jackson will think?" He asks me and I shrug Not sure If I wanna know that answer

"well Since I have been friends with Jackson for some quite some time I'm sure he won't care...I mean he gets the whole dorm for himself" He tells me and I nod...Not really what I wanted to hear But I guess he is right.