Forbidden Fantasies

Chapter 7: Decisions

That day at work was a struggle, I literally could not focus at all. Tj and Daquan was on my mind all day, like I truly like Tj and feel that we could really do good together, but deep down inside I just feel a connection with Daquan.

After I got home I went home and took a shower and just sat there and re thought all the decisions I have made over the last couple of days, I really I was reacting with my mind rather than my heart, my gut is telling me to just go  for it and be with Tj and just leave Daquan in the past, but my heart is telling me to be with Daquan, but I honestly don't trust Daquan, and just know I'm going to get hurt in the end.

I got out and came in to see my mother sitting on my bed.

"Ma what you doing here," I asked shocked to see her

"Well I live here don't," she said getting up giving me a hug

"Well of course you do, I just wasn't expecting to see you until Friday," I said throwing on some clothes

"Well I was down there in Atlanta helping your brother look for a place, but you know I can't take his mouth for long," she said laying back on my bed

"Well did you find him a place?" I said taking a seat next her

"Yeah we found one after 3 days of searching, but I don't think it's going to last for long because that chick was calling his phone the whole time I was there, and he was acting like she wasn't, but I know when I would leave he was talking with her," she said rolling her eyes

"But what's been going on with you, I know you better not had no bitches in my house while I was gone, she said nudging me in the side

"No ma, I ain't have nobody in your house, just been focusing on Finals," I said laughing

"You better have! Cause I ain't raise no dumb ass! But get dress, I'm hungry, and I know you didn't go buy any groceries!" She said heading out of my room

The Whole time my mom and and I was eating I just wanted to tell her everything that had been going on the past couple days, but my mouth would not let it come out.

"What's wrong baby, looks like you got a lot on your mind, she said taking a sip of her drink

"Nothing ma, just thinking about these finals, I said lying

"Well if I know anything, I know I didn't raise no dummy, so I already know you passed them, what you need to be thinking about now, is what college you are going to attend, she said raising her brows

"Yeah definitely, I already have a few in mind, just got to re look them over, I said when Tj flashed across my thoughts

"Well I'm done, so let's head back home cause I'm tired as hell, she said leaving a tip

The drive back home was quite, a lot was running through my thoughts. Letting my mom know about my sexuality, Tj, college, Daquan, my friends! Like Damn, but I let out a deep breath and laid my head against the window

When we got home I shot Tj a text letting him know I was heading over. My main priority was getting to know where his head was, and what does he see in the near future, and try to restrain from fucking.

When Tj answered the door, all he had on was his briefs! Damn this is going to be hard. My mind was saying , "You are just here to talk," but my asshole was like, "Nigga if you don't hop on that dick and ride it until you can't no more!"

We made our way upstairs, and he began to kiss all over me.

"Damn I missed you so much," he said caressing my ass